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Welcome back, my pokesisters.
It's been a good few months since I've last talked to you, and in that time we've had irrelevant news about Pokemon events and movies, different playthroughs of Pokemon games and endless discussion about the cutscenes in Pokemon Sun and Moon. But today was different; we were shown a Pokemon Direct by Nintendo's Youtube channel; which announced new Pokemon games on different platforms. You can watch the Direct at the link below:
As you can see there were some new games announced. The first was 'Pokemon Tournament DX'; an updated title of 'Pokemon Tournament', for release on the Nintendo Switch. The second game is the upcoming 'Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon' on the Nintendo 3DS family of systems. Finally, the Nintendo Virtual Console will also start hosting the 1999 games, 'Pokemon Gold and Silver' in September this year. We'll go into detail about each of them today!
As previously stated, the 1999 releases of 'Pokemon Gold and Silver' will be released to the Nintendo 3DS Virtual Console later this year. These will be released in their original form just like 'Pokemon Red and Green, Pokemon Blue and Pokemon Yellow' last year as downloadable releases for the Virtual Console. These will also be compatible with Pokemon Bank in the future to allow transfer of these Pokemon and finally allow connectivity across all seven generations. The Virtual Console issues of 'Pokemon Gold and Silver' will be released on September 22, 2017.
Next up; 'Pokken Tournament DX'; another game that will release on September 22, this year. This game is an updated version of 'Pokemon Tournament' for the Wii U and certain Arcades; and is being released on the Nintendo Switch console; as Pokemon's first entry there. It comes with all characters from the Wii U version, Scizor, Darkrai and Empoleon from the Arcade version and the new Generation 7 Pokemon; Decidueye. New support Pokemon will also be added; and all of these support Pokemon and playable Pokemon will be available right from the get-go of the game. New modes will also be added such as Team Battle Mode and Group Battle Mode; as well as the ability to watch replays. 'Pokemon Tournament DX' launches on September 22.
And finally, the news that we're all here to Witness (buy it on iTunes on June 9th); 'Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon'; the newest main series games. These titles are an "alternative storyline" of 'Pokemon Sun and Moon' - which implies that they are more resemblant of 'Pokemon Platinum' than 'Pokemon Black 2 and White 2' - and will be released on the Nintendo 3DS worldwide on November 17th this year!
First up, we have these alternative designs of the box legendaries Solgaleo and Lunala. These appear to be new forms which have something to do with the legendary Pokemon, Necrozma; as they seem to have absorbed its prism armor. In addition, the undersides of these Pokemon now seem to have a much more "fire and ice" coloring than their original counterparts. Both of these are sure to play a significant role within the game.
Going through the trailer with immense detail. we see that we start in what appears to be the same house as in 'Pokemon Sun and Moon', and Route 1 appears to be slightly more vibrant color-wise. We have a Wingull fly over our heads and bypass a lady with an Alolan Meowth. Later, we are seen with all three starter Pokemon in a location that could be Iki Town, or could be further down Route 1. Then we are shown a ranch filled with Pikachu, a caretaker in a green top and a pond with a waterfall. We are then shown an angry Togedemaru, a Mimikyu swooping down from above, and showcasing its undercloth, and a pouncing Lycanroc (Midday Form)l all in different locations - a grey building (Mt. Hokulani Observatory?), a dark forest (unknown location; possibly Lush Jungle or Verdant Cavern?) and then a mountain-esque area (Vast Poni Canyon?).. Finally, we see the alternative box legendaries and a the male trainer wearing a black Z-ring surrounded by prismatic colors.
Masuda then talks about the games themselves. While he's doing this more images are shown; we see an area with a Pikachu caravan, a little lake (which appears to fall into a waterfall), and then Pikachu and Slowpoke on the other side. I believe this could be a previously unexplorable area on Melemele Island where the waterfall leads to; close to Iki Town. He also states that this game is an alternative story taking place in the same world as 'Pokemon Sun and Moon' but featuring Pokemon that didn't appear in the original versions. This more-than-likely means either a) New Alola Forms, b) Pokemon that weren't in the Alola Dex before, c) New Forms for Gen 7 Pokemon, d) all of the above. Don't get any hopes up about new actual Pokemon designs as I think they'll be wasted until we have any evidence to the idea. He states that New Features will be added to the title as well.
That's all from me for today. Be on the lookout for any more news over the coming weeks; we still have E3 and Corocoro but don't expect too much, if anything, from there at this stage. Are you expecting new mega forms, new alola forms, new Ultra Beasts plots? Do tell all, and don't forget to pre-order 'Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon'; out November 17!
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NEON HITCH - ANARCHY
#HuntySUGGESTS: Please, Firetiger, Anarchy, Razorblade
#HuntySKIPS: Intro, Grade & Liquor, No. 1 Lady
Neon Hitch (her actual name) is an English singer, songwriter, and stoner. She was featured on a decently big hit a couple years back by Gym Class Heroes called "Ass Back Home", but has really struggled commercially as an artist, considering that she scrapped her last album concept, Eleutheromaniac, due to monetary issues. I'm relatively new to her discography, but I've pretty much immersed myself in her discography for the past few months. "Fuck U Betta," "Get Over U," and "Yard Sale" constitute my pre-Anarchy trinity, though "Picasso," "Click Click," "Some Like It Hot" and "Subtitles" are all masterpieces!
Going into this album, I was expecting a lot considering the relative quality of her previous work. However, upon first-listen, I was left incredibly disappointed by the overall cheapness of the album, literally. The production is really cheap on songs like "Neighborhood", though I can't really fault her for it considering her various monetary predicaments in the past. But like .... ~50% of the album is either literally freestyled or just comes off as freestyled. The album comes off as quite rushed, which is disappointing.
However, there are a lot of standouts on Anarchy that made the wait ultimately ... mildly worth it. "Please" is a lovely ballad that I personally believe ranks among the best of her discography. It's just a really simple love ballad and I think it's more resonant than a lot of the cuts on the album.. A lot of the album comes off as a drugged haze (all shade to Neon tbh!), but "Firetiger" is a really soulful mess that I also think has a lot of resonance as a whole. According to @Americunt, it was actually intended to be a tribute to Amy Winehouse for three reasons (her being roommates with Amy, the whole tiger/"Lioness" conceit, and the general Frank-esque air to it), which made it come off as a lot more moving to me altogether. I also liked the title track for being boppy (albeit freestyled af), and "Razorblade" for being generally cool. It's a messy album, but the highlights are really nice.
Altogether, I'm not entirely sure if I personally thought the wait for Anarchy was ENTIRELY worth it, considering all the lowlights, but the highlights are awesome and definitely snatch my edges!
#HuntyNITPICKS: Ultimately, you'll prefer it if you're a previous stan of Neon Hitch, but songs like "Please" and "Firetiger" are really beautiful so check those out first tbqmfh
BRIGHT LIGHT BRIGHT LIGHT - CHOREOGRAPHY
#HuntySUGGESTS: Symmetry of Two Hearts, Home. Careful Whisper, Won't Do
#HuntySKIPS: Little Bit, Into the Night, All in the Name
Bright Light Bright Light is the stage moniker of Welsh singer-songwriter Rod Thomas, and his music can loosely be surprised as nu-disco-influenced dance music. His music is very fucking gay, but Choreography is definitely more flamboyantly gay than his previous albums. There's literally a song about rough anal on this album, whereas the gayest he got on Life Is Easy was the saccharine "Lust for Life." Basically, if you're homosexual, you should check out his music because sometimes some male musical dick isn't that bad!
Honestly though, my biggest problem with Choreography was with how bloated it was. It's so gay it's almost hard to swallow (no pun intended!), especially considering the lengths of some songs. Apparently this album was intended to be a concept album of sorts, akin to some kind of stage production, which is why everything is so big and overblown. I understand what he was going for from an artistic perspective, but if you compare songs like "All in the Name" to songs like "There Are No Miracles" ... it's a little much.
Altogether it was a good album though! This album was mostly very hit-and-miss, but the standouts were really nice. "Symmetry of Two Hearts" is definitely my favorite from the album, mostly because it's like shimmering in gay camp. A lot of this album comes off as a male and gay Light Years considering how campy it is in general. Of course, there are a lot of points on the album that are introspective and emotional, like the midtempos "Home" and "Won't Do". Another standout is "Careful Whisper", which is one of the best ballads on here imo. Bright Light x2 ultimately wound up doing the ballads better justice than he did the uptempos, which was funny considering that I thought he did the opposite with his last album.
Ultimately, I thought it was a step down from Life Is Easy, but I personally thought that that was a great album regardless, so it would be hard to top either way. I'll just have to listen to Make Me Believe In Hope in full first to fully assess the quality of this album in comparison to the rest of his discography.
#HuntySUGGESTS: but only if you identify as gay
SHURA - NOTHING'S REAL
#HuntySUGGESTS: White Light (Single Edit), Indecision, Make It Up, Touch
#HuntySKIPS: Kidz 'N' Stuff, The Space Tapes, White Light (Extended Cut)
Shura is the stage name of a winter lesbian named Alexandra Lilah Denton, and she's a singer, songwriter, and producer. I've been into her since "Touch", but my interest as her has been fluctuating over the years: I never liked "2Shy", always felt super indifferent towards "Just Once", but I did like "Indecision" and I did love "White Light". Her music is like ... vaguely chillwave, but she's incorporated heavier beats for this album which was nice!
The process of waiting for this album was excrutiating to say the least given her fucking nerve to make us wait so many years of almost complete silence to wait for shit like "The Space Tapes". The fucking audacity ... this album can be so self-indulgent in that sense to the point that it's almost ridiculous. "The Space Tapes" is legitimately a 10 minute song which is literally three random acapellas, from three different songs on this album, stitched together under an ugly waltz instrumental. She really went fucking overboard and Pitchfork to the max. . She even tainted her best song by elongating it and tacking on a different closer to it, which was ridiculous also. The last two songs literally make up a 20 minute long lull. C'mon hunty ...
She's lucky I like her though! The production here is like really rich and it works a lot better for the more immersive songs on the album like "White Light" and "Touch". "Make It Up" and the title track are the two best new cuts from Nothing's Real, but they still strike me as mildly fillery tbh. The strongest songs on the album are the pre-release singles barring "The Space Tapes'. "White Light" has a really nice groove to it that strikes me as disco-influenced, which is cool though I do prefer the curtailed single cut because it was spread pretty thin across the album extended cut. "Indecision" and "Touch" are super glossy and really resonant, which is also something I can even say about "2Shy" which I don't even care about that much. I really wished she remastered "Just Once" though and put it on the album because there were a lot of places that it'd have worked out for her better than certain album tracks (i.e. "Kidz 'N' Stuff I mean wow pls).
Overall, it was a disappointment but it was still good! It was one of the stronger albums released this month but definitely not the strongest, as that probably went to something a lot more coherent like For All We Know. Maybe the album will be more effective for people who are first sampling Shura, but the contrast between the already-released singles and the now-released album tracks is .... glaringly obvious.
#HuntySUGGESTS: ultimately, it could've been a lot better, but I think it'll sound a lot better to fresh ears than it did for me! I did like it regardless though
also I just wanted to remind everyone of the superior single!
I have no clue, what this one is. Haha!
I am really like this at times. xD
Unsure, what this is.
Talking about sadness & life:
Words in German with Driven:
I'll be updating this once in a while.
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1) Glow - Excellent song. I love the opening and how the song builds up. The passion in her vocals is also outstanding in this song. I love how powerful the song is overall 9/10
2) Wait - Perhaps my fave song on the EP. I love the dreamy beginning and again the passion within this song. Overall just a beautiful song 9.5/10
3) Break This Heartbreak - A total bop. While it is a bit lyrically empty - the song flows so nicely and the instrumental breaks are out of this world. An experience 9/10
4) Chasing Ghosts - Very interesting song with a very interesting intro. I love the lyrics and flow to this song overall. However I think I might like the demo a little more 8.5/10
Overall this is a fantastic and solid piece of work. It has interesting and eclectic production as well as good lyrics. I know Kylie + Garibay is most people's faves out of the two - but I think this one is superior. If KM14 was anything like this EP I'd be over the moon
Kylie + Garibay
1) Black and White - A fantastic song. The production is a total bop and I really enjoy the lyrics on this track in particular. Heartbreaklie strikes again. I've grown to appreciate Shaggy on this track but still would have liked if he was kept - also the Extended Version is better. Still a 9/10
2) If I Can't Have You - Ok like the first minute of the song is this Sam guy singing so points immediately lost there The production is fairly good but the song is a bit bland overall. I love her vocals at the very end though 7.5/10
3) Your Body - Ok Giorgio's talking at the beginning should have been KEPT. That being said this is a good song. The production and flow along with her voice are pretty worthy of praise. The song is a bit lyrically empty but Overall it's an 8/10
Overall this EP isn't my fave out of the two. I think Sleepwalker is considerably better (though many would disagree with me). The features drag down the EP IMO but still it's a fairly solid piece of work - and Black and White is literally one of her best songs from the past 7 years.
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feeling like I'm the only person that likes every single cover except the Japanese ver. tbh.
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~ Dairy of an Otaku ~
Hi, guys! Another week has passed, so thought it was about time to post a new entry.
Let's get on to what I watched past week and what I'm gonna try out next week.
FINISHED PAST WEEK
Attack on Titan (Season 2)
WHOA! #SHOOK! OMG!
I literally just finished this, and I can't even find words to describe how obsessed I am with this! I binged it within 2 days and now I'm gonna feel down, because I'm gonna have to wait a whole year for the third season. If we're lucky... if you know what I mean. This was an amazing watch and I'll be in suspense 'til 2018 for sure!
This left me with more questions than the ending of the first season tho. So many plot twists, so much mystery, too many questions!
Of course I'm giving this a 10/10 stars!
She and her Cat: Everything Flows
This was a very short watch as there were only 4 episodes and they were all about 7 minutes. I can recommend this to all animal lovers, and especially for owners of the feline furries.
WARNING: straight-in-the-feels-alert !
I'm giving this 9/10 stars. :3
ON BOARD TO WATCH
Alice & Zouroku
I tried out one episode, and I was pleasantly surprised. At first when I saw the art work of the Anime, it looked cutesy and heartfelt / uplifting.
It turned out to be way more dark and grim than I expected though, and I ended up being really intrigued and interested to see how the rest of this story unfolds. The final episode will be uploaded next week, so I'll be reviewing the first season in my next blog entry.
Polar Bear Cafe
This looks totally adorable and goofy enough for me to absolutely LOVE!
It does have 50 episodes though, so I'm not sure if I'll be able to put up a full review by next week.
I've already seen the first episode and completely fell in love with it. Next week the final episode will be uploaded, so full review coming up soon.
TRY-OUTS FOR UPCOMING WEEK:
The Eccentric Family
First things I noticed about this Anime is that it involves; animals, magic, slice of life, perfect ingredients for an Anime that I'll love!
Trying out the first episode upcoming week.
There are already 2 seasons, with a total of 25 episodes and the final one will be uploaded June 25th.
n Kyoto, there are three kinds of residents: humans, raccoon dogs, and tengu. Shimogamo Yasaburou is the third son of the Shimogamo raccoon dog family. His father, Souichirou, had been the head of Kyoto raccoon dog community until he was eaten by the human members of "Friday Club". While taking care of old tengu, fighting with other raccoon dogs, and playing with a psychic human girl, Yasaburou approaches the truth of his father's death.
Shuumatsu Nani Shitemasu ka? Isogashii Desu ka? Sukutte Moratte Ii Desu ka? /
WorldEnd: What do you do at the end of the world? Are you busy? Will you save us?
I'm really excited to try out one episode of this Anime. On first impression this looks witchy/magical/distopian..
Final episode of the first season will be uploaded on June 27th.
The fleeting and sad story about little girls known as fairy weapons and an associate hero that survived. This is a world after it was attacked by unidentified monsters known as beasts and many of the species in the world, including humans, had been destroyed. The species that had managed to survive left the ground and were living on a floating island called Regal Ele. Willem Kumesh, wakes up above the clouds 500 years later and couldn’t protect the ones who he wanted to protect. Actually, he was living in despair because he was the only survivor. He then ends up meeting a group of girls while starting an unexpected weapon management job.
Tsuki ga Kirei
This just looks very cute and light, which Imma need after those slaughters in Attack on Titan.
The final episode of the first season will be uploaded on June 29th.
It’s the third year of middle school. Kotaro, a bookish boy aspiring to become a novelist, and Akane, a track girl who loves to run, meet in the same class together for the first time. They’re put in charge of the equipment for the sports festival, and slowly grow closer via LINE. How does Kotaro deal with his growing feelings for her? Meanwhile, Takumi has been in love with Akane since first year, and Akane’s friend, Chinatsu, becomes interested in Kotaro. A refreshing story of young love set in Kawagoe.
Clione no Akari
This one finally has a premiere date, so I'm gonna mark my calendars on
I enjoyed the first episode of Sagrada Reset, but the final episode is planned for September, so I'm gonna put that one on hold 'til then.
Well, see you guys again next week!
Recommendations are still more than welcome and I'll try to fit them in as much as I can.
Let me know if you no longer wish to be tagged as well.
Episode One - "Trouble In Chicago"
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Hannah. 23 years old. The oldest sister in a family of three kids. The sister that keeps everything going. She hops out of bed, puts her clothes on, and heads down stairs, ready to start the day as usual. Her father, Sylk, is laying passed out on the floor. She sighs and calls for her younger brothers, Taylor and Cody, to come help carry him out. Usually they just drop him off in the yard and leave him there until he wakes up, but this time she had something else in mind. All three of them picked him up and carried him out the back door, down the steps, and into the back yard. They lay him down for a brief moment so that Taylor and Cody can listen to Hannah's plan, and just to rest. "Maybe he should drop a few pounds," Taylor says. "Yeah, at least then if he's gonna leave us to carry his rank ass out of the house every day he wouldn't be as hard to carry." Cody says. They all laugh. "Okay, here's what we're going to do..." Hannah says. "We'll carry him to the nearest dumpster and drop him off there. Even if it gets emptied while he's still in there, it won't really make a difference in our lives." Taylor and Cody both agreed with the plan. They once again lift his body back up and carry him to the nearest dumpster where they eventually drop him off and head back to the house.
Taylor. 18 years old. The youngest sibling by 9 months, a senior in High School. He has plans to study and train to become an EMT. He leaves the house and heads over to his friend Lily's house. He arrived at her house and knocked at the door, but instead was greeted by her brother, Hylia. Hylia smiled and grabbed onto Taylor's shirt, pulling him into the house. They made their way back to his room and closed the door. "Is your father home?" Taylor asks. "No, he's probably being arrested for DUI as we speak." Hylia replies. They both take off their clothes and start going at it. Suddenly, they hear the front door open and quickly get their clothes back on and try to act natural. Lily walks down the hallway and into her bedroom. They both let out a sigh of relief. Hylia's father is nothing shy of a vile creature, hated by everyone in the city, been in and out of prison more times than you could count on both hands. Oh, and one more thing - Taylor and Hylia would both be shot dead right then and there if he caught them.
Cody. 18 years old. The middle sibling, older than Taylor by 9 months, he is also a senior in High School. Most people would describe him as... a grade A asshole. It's too bad smarts can't buy a better personality. He heads home with a black eye that he got after getting into a fight with a guy at school, a guy who happens to be dating a girl he slept with... on multiple occasions. This is not an anomaly when it comes to Cody's sex life, he is the definition of a whore. It'd take less time to name the girls he hasn't slept with as apposed to the ones he has. He gets home and goes straight to the fridge to get an ice pack and apply it straight to his eye. Hannah comes down stairs and notices the black eye, she just rolls her eyes and moves on. Cody then heads over to his "friend" Maraj's house, where they sit outside on the front steps, pop a pack of cigarettes, and start smoking.
Sylk. 50. The father of three children. A raging alcoholic. Blows all of his disability checks on booze and Mariah Carey CDs. His eyes start to open, all alone in a dumpster, in the dark... "What the fuck?!?!" Sylk screams. He manages to get the lid off the dumpster and climbs out, somehow smelling even cleaner than he did before he got thrown in there. He makes his way down the alley, stumbling as he walks, and eventually makes his way to his street. He walks up the sidewalk and up to the front door, into the house. Everyone is having dinner and pays no attention to him until he says "Hellloooooo, my wonderful family, I'm home!" Everyone looks at him and then goes back to their food. "Ungrateful rodents." Sylk mumbles under his breath. Sylk makes his way into the kitchen and grabs a bottle of booze, then he stumbles back out of the house and falls down the steps into a huge pile of dog shit. "Fuck," he says. "Why must I always fall head first into Jennifer Lopez's discography?" he exclaims, angrily wiping the shit off his face with a leaf. Sylk then lays back down and falls asleep outside in the front yard, most likely knocked out from all the drugs he combined earlier.
The neighbors, Aidan and Diamond, make their way into the house with a fresh pan of lasagna. "Hey bitches!" Diamond says, strutting into the house in a new pair of heels. "Are those heels Versace?" Hannah asks. "Yeah, my baby got them for me as a gift for our 3rd anniversary!" Diamond replies. "Wow, I wish I had a man that wasn't cheap." Hannah says. "Maybe you should get out and find yourself a sugar daddy, I'm sure there's lots of old geezers out there that can still get it up and would love to buy you shit." Diamond says. They sit down and the whole family begins eating. Yet another long day behind them in the Gallagher household.
@Hannah. as Hannah Gallagher
@Sylk as Sylk Gallagher
@Taylor as Taylor Gallagher
@Daenerys as Cody Gallagher
@Hylia as Hylia Mylkovich
@TattooedHeart as Lily Mylkovich
@Aidan. as Aidan Balls
@Diamond as Diamond Fisher
@Hyun. as Hyun Jackson
@Maraj as Maraj Jackson
@Saiga as Saiga Lishman
@AwayForAWhile as Winndy Gallagher
Re-occurring Roles/Guest Stars:
@Kali as Kali Smart
@blankdreams. as Blank Lishman
@My Everything as Luca Lishman
@Michael. as Michelle Nikolaev
After she finishes that movie, she probably would want to take a long break in one of those Giza pyramids, which will preserve her youth and beauty for the next 100 years. Then she will have a literal comeback. Then she would take another another year to adopt to new trends, surroundings and evolved species. She would release a new album about partying in afterlife. Of course, no one would care because all her stans would be six feet under and fossilized. Madonna would flop, while Return of Jesus would be the thing.
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*NOTE: The events, characters and firms depicted in this dream story are fictitious. Any similarity to actual persons, living or banned, or to actual firms, is purely coincidental.
So, it all started with me on a date with this really hot guy, like he was so fucking hot, black, totally my type, tall and a had deep voice, we were clearly enjoying each others company he was totally into me, the only thing weird was his two little kids were there...yup he had kids. But Dream-Sylk was surprisingly fine with that, infact I was getting along just fun with the kids, being a mother to them and all. So after we finish eating, he tells the kids to go back to the car and we'll be right there, so I have a moment and one thing leads to another and we go like in the back or whatever and do the nasty. Once the nasty is done, (which was amazing I might add) Both the man and the kids suddenly disappear and I'm back at my place on my laptop, I suppose it's the next day or whatever? So I open my laptop, log in on Fotp, and I'm SHOOK. The Homepage looks different, there's an admin announcement, that fotp was being sold to someone. The entire layout had already been changed, all the Fotp favs are under one section and the main section is titled "Mariah Carey, Queen of Music" I'm like wtf is this shit??? So I scroll down, I have no idea how to use this new fotp, but I look at the status bar and there is a status from @Hermione that says "Wtf did Sylk do? sob1" and another status from @Aidan. that says "Sylk done fucked up. He betrayed the Kylie section, he betrayed all of us." and then another one from @Hannah that is just a crying emote. Her rep was negative 100k, all the statuses had like 333+ downvotes and there were comments from Onika like "there's nothing we can do now." And I'm like WTFFF is going on, then suddenly the page refreshes and there's a new status from @Daenerys "HE'S ONLINE" I get scared and shut my laptop and go to sleep.
Then next day or whatever, apparently all of fotp lives close by so I come to hang out at the rep clique's usual hang out place, which is like a coffee shop, just like how it is in Friends but 10x cooler, but the coffee shop is burned down, and Hannah, @Hylia, @Saiga, @Hyun., @Taylor @Halcyon @TattooedHeart @Diamond @Dr. Slay @Maraj etc are all helping clean up, they suddenly spot me and Hannah jumps me and starts attacking whilst yelling "what did you doooo??", Taylor and Daenerys hold her back. And I'm like "wtf did I do?"
Now, mind you, this was a long ass dream so there's a huge plot hole here somewhere but Saiga starts explaining what happened, he says that fotp was bought under the name Sylk, and turned into a profit seeking pop forum. You have to pay to be on fotp now and only discuss about Mariah, everyone has negative rep except for Sylk and Aidan is banned every other week. So I'm like wtf I would never do that. But none of them believe me, so I ask for my girl Kali (@Yuna) since she would side with me, but they all tell me that after what happened Kali was so disgusted at what I had done, she decided to leave fotp forever. After hearing that I basically start bawling and have a meltdown. Seeing me cry and all everyone suddenly believe me, and we all have a group hug. We all start talking and come to the conclusion that this is all a plan orchestrated by none other than the anti-rep clique, the people who've always hated us, this is their plan to tear apart the rep clique/nudes. We all basically turn into Nancy Drew, and me DETERMINED to get Kali back, also start investigating. We learn that Onika does not know any of this tom foolery, and the sale of fotp hasn't yet went through, so we decide to get brave and make an offer on it, Onika tells us that the other buyer aka the fake "Sylk" has upped their original offer after hearing about us so we basically have a bidding war, ultimately Onika gets fed up and proposes a battle, and I say yes! All ya'll start hating me saying that the anti-rep clique which also consists of the mods have a much larger army than us, we would never be able to fight them, but I like give a motivational speech and what not and all ya'll show up, all NUDES members, past and present plus all the rep clique supporters like Hermione, @Royale, @Royalty, @#Music @Malfoy, @Coca-Cola @Cosmic @Vilppu @Skyline @Juinaeetc like literally everyone I'm friends with one here show up, ready to support and fight alongside us.
The day of the battle arrives, and it's EXACTLY like the Battle of the Bastards episode from Game of Thrones except ofcourse 10x cooler. One one side, the rep clique army all mixed up and in a jumbled pattern, while the opposing army all in large numbers and perfectly coordinated. Suddenly, @Tasso appears from behind yelling Sylkkkkk and everyone takes out their weapons to attack him but I wave a hand and all ya'll stop (btw I look so fucking bad ass here) Tasso tells me that mods aren't involved in this, I'm like what?? then who is? Tasso tells me that the mod + Lana clique actually want us to win, cause I became a lana stan not too long ago and I get along with all the mods, so that kind of created an inconspicuous alliance between us. We're all shook! Then who are these people fighting us? I ask.
Suddenly the leader of the army on the other end steps out... and I look through my binoculars and I'm SHOOK it's none other than Count Olaf, he gives a speech about how we never respected him and accepted him in the rep clique or Big Brother game, thus he has gathered all our haters and created a dupe army, and planned to tear apart the rep clique by using it's most important and key member aka Sylk! The hot guy with the kids was actually a hitman sent by him that was supposed to kill me, but I gave him good sex so he spared my life apparently. And he always burned down the coffee shop hang out place so there wouldn't be chance of us getting back together, but his plan didn't work. "But it does not matter, now we end this once and for all." Count Olaf declares. We all start shaking, our army barely visible on the field, and there's spread wide across, as far as the eye could see. They start marching forward and we have no choice but to fight. So the battle begins and we're basically losing, many of us are killed. I'm on the verge of dying, when Hylia saves me and we kiss and have a moment where he tells me to do what I was meant to do, what my purpose in life is. Suddenly, I get up and start hitting a whistle note and out of nowhere three huge dragons appear, Count Olaf and his army are SHOOK. But we're still outnumbered, so suddenly, we hear a siren and Witness (the song) starts playing, we look over our shoulder and all of fotp is here to fight including the mods, the lana, katy, taylor, xtina, beyonce etc etc all the cliques, Americunt, Hunty Bear, fab LanaxGaga, Philip, Anna-wa, Honey, Entea, Rupaul etc everyone I've ever known on fotp is here and leading the army is none other than KALI!!! We all fight and Count Olaf's army retreats, basically at this point I start waking up slowly so it's all very disjointed, but we won ofcourse. And FOTP was restored, Onika and @Lachlan bestowed me with Member of The Century along with a Hall of Fame AND a Mariah + Kylie perm Section, with not 4 but 300 Wendy Emotes! I made up with everyone, Taylor, Hannah, Hyun, Daenerys etc etc and Kali and we all hug and we all collectively upvote Count Olaf's ban log.
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i dont have a verse I yet and idk if i wanna repeat the chorus 2 at the end a second time
You can't fix whats broken
So stop trying
Stop trying to fix me
You're such a fool
For thinking i can be fixed
I ain't broken
I'm still in one piece
But i can't say the same for you
Stop kidding yourself
I know you wanna let it out
But it just can't be done
What's broken will forever heal
You can't fix whats broken
So stop trying
Stop trying to fix me
You're such a fool
For thinking i can be fixed
I ain't broken
I'm still in one piece
But i can't say the same for you
I can't tell you how many times
Someone's tried to fix me
I've lost count
You aren't the first to try
But you won't be the last
You can't fix whats broken
So stop trying
Stop trying to fix me
Why ya gotta be such a fool?
For thinking i can be fixed
I'm not broken
I didn't fall to pieces
But i can't say the same for you, my dear
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Omg this album is just so amazing my top 3 of 2016 tbh she could manage this era so well too, it's just a masterpiece grammy worthy
2.Thinking Bout You
Special Mention to:
I can't believe i slept over Moonlight and Greedy so much time omg they are so fucking good and nice single material (actually i doubt that they will be released at some point but who knows) Sometimes, Thinking Bout You and Everyday have been my favorite songs of the record since the album was released, i've never stopped loving these songs, and i'm glad that at least one of them (Everyday) could make it as single (Sometimes or TBY would've been better ) Into You is a fucking bop and Dangerous Woman was a good lead, tho another song would've been better
Less Favorite Tracks:
1.Step On Up
3.Leave Me Lonely
I don't even bother to listen these songs, they are bored, well sometimes just sometimes i bop at Step On Up but i'm glad it's just a bonus track after all
3.Side to Side
4.Let Me Love You
I know focus isn't part of the album at all (well it's a japanese bonus track) but i rank it anyway, i have to make clear that i like more the Dangerous Woman A Capella video than the oficial video, but it's still nice
My singles choices would be like:
4.Knew Better/Forever Boy
5.Side to Side
7.Sometimes/Thinking Bout You Double Single
I think that Into You as lead single would have been better recieved by the public more than Dangerous Woman was, but after the hype, Dangerous Woman would have been a good single choice, Moonlight maybe just a promo single because it's not that commercial but a good video would make it nice, Knew Better/Forever Boy is a bop!! slay mama, Side to Side returned her the hype because it's a fucking bop and that song was everywhere, Everyday because yes and Sometimes/Thinking Bout You double single/video to end the era
Dangerous Woman 8/10
Be Alright 6/10
Into You 9/10
Side to Side 7/10
Let Me Love You 6/10
Leave Me Lonely 5/10
I Don't Care 6/10
Bad Decisions 8/10
Touch It 7/10
Knew Better/Forever Boy 8/10
Thinking Bout You 10/10
Step On Up 6/10
Jason's Song 4/10
Wendy Reaction PNGS SE7EN is here! Enjoy!
Eehhhh Wendy PNG
Crybaby Wendy PNG
Horse Teeth Wendy PNG
i- Wendy PNG
Pretends to be shocked Wendy PNG
Horrified Wendy PNG
Reading Wendy PNG
Hmmphm Wendy PNG
Side Lip Wendy PNG
Serious Wendy PNG
Reading without glasses Wendy PNG
Happy Wendy PNG
Whew Wendy PNG
Well Well Well.... Wendy PNG
Reading in her backyard Wendy PNG
Wig FLEW Wendy PNG
That's all for now Enjoy!
Welcome to the FOTP Big Brother 5 Archive!
Looks a lot better on desktop btw!
Season Airdates: March 16 - April 10
Houseguests, their placements, and their stats:
HOH Wins: 4 HOH Wins: 5 HOH Wins: 2 HOH Wins: 3 HOH Wins: 1 HOH Wins: 3 HOH Wins: 2
Veto Wins: 4 Veto Wins: 6 Veto Wins: 2 Veto Wins: 2 Veto Wins: 2 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 2
Times Nominated: 4 Times Nominated: 4 Times Nominated: 6 Times Nominated: 3 Times Nominated: 2 Times Nominated: 4 Times Nominated: 3
Votes Against: 0 Votes Against: 7 Votes Against: 3 Votes Against: 1 Votes Against: 3 Votes Against: 12 Votes Against: 5
*Fan Favorite Winner*
HOH Wins: 2 HOH Wins: 1 HOH Wins: 1 HOH Wins: 1 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 2
Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 1 Veto Wins: 3 Veto Wins: 1 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 2
Times Nominated: 2 Times Nominated: 5 Times Nominated: 3 Times Nominated: 4 Times Nominated: 3 Times Nominated: 3 Times Nominated: 2
Votes Against: 5 Votes Against: 15 Votes Against: 10 Votes Against: 20 Votes Against: 12 Votes Against: 17 Votes Against: 9
Jury | Pre-Jury
HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 1 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0
Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 1 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 1 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0
Times Nominated: 3 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 2 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 2 Times Nominated: 4
Votes Against: 18 Votes Against: 9 Votes Against: 21 Votes Against: 9 Votes Against: 11 Votes Against: 12 Votes Against: 34
HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0
Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 1
Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 2 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 1
Votes Against: 10 Votes Against: 11 Votes Against: 16 Votes Against: 15 Votes Against: 15 Votes Against: 21 Votes Against: 19
HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0 HOH Wins: 0
Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0 Veto Wins: 0
Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 2 Times Nominated: 1 Times Nominated: 0
Votes Against: 14 Votes Against: 35 Votes Against: 16 Votes Against: 2
Fan Ranking Chart Runs
*Numbers in red indicate your peak*
Jae / nevermind
My Everything / Luca.
Skywalker / Tomas
I'm totally confused again. I don't know who I should put into my Top 10 artists.
I have 2 singers who are amazing but I can't choose because they are almost equal to me.
I listed some things I like about them and some things I don't like.
Maria Mena: I love her ballads and her voice, it's so fragile. I love that she is from Norway. I love that she has 7 albums. I sarted to follow her in Summer 2010. I don't really like that most of her songs sound the same. I don't really like her look, she reminds me of the girlfriend from my crush. Well she was mostly just there. I listend to her stuff but I never really care for her.
Amy Macdonald: I love that she is mostly a rock singer (she makes folk-rock-pop music), she well known in Europe, she really pretty and she's from Scottland. I started to follow her in June 2012. The bad things are that she only has 4 albums and she had a 4 1/2 years break.
Who should I choose?
Amy Macdonald (left) and Maria Mena (right)
This ranking is for the one and only queen: Madonna, bitch. ~I Don't Give A paraphrase reference~ I decided to do this because why not? I'm still on my little break but this gives me something to do and I love doing these so far even though they flop.
WARNING: I'm putting the first one in a spoiler because it is a very unpopular opinion and I don't need y'all bitching. If you open the spoiler, you are agreeing to not be a little bitch.
This album just doesn't do ANYTHING for me. I rarely listen to it and if I do, it's just the highlights. Pls don't hurt me.
Highlights: Papa Don't Preach, Open Your Heart, Where's The Party, True Blue
Can Go Suck A Dick: Love Makes The World Go Round, Jimmy Jimmy
12: Like A Virgin
This album has some AMAZING songs but the fillers are FILLERS and so generic and just dated trash. Love Don't Live Here Anymore is underrated.
Highlights: Angel, Like A Virgin, Love Don't Live Here Anymore, Dress You Up, Shoo-Bee-Doo (pls don't hurt me)
Can Go Suck A Dick: Material Girl (pls don't hurt me), Over And Over
Pretty dated but pretty catchy and an amazing debut. Not much to say about it really
Highlights: Lucky Star, Burning Up, I Know It, Holigay, Think Of Me
Can Go Suck A Dick: Borderline
She could have done better but this album isn't as bad as everyone says. It's just messy tbh. Home of the should have been hit single I'm Addicted. Some songs are borderline G E N E R I C ie Girl Gone Wild, Turn Up The Radio, etc but she pulls some of them off. I wish she didn't try to be so edgy this era but at least we got some holy BOPS.
Highlights: Girl Gone Wild, Gang Bang, I'm Addicted, Nicki's verse on I Don't Give A, Love Spent, Falling Free, Beautiful Killer, Best Friend
Can Go Suck A Dick: Give Me All Your No, the rest of I Don't Give A
9: Hard Candy
Truly underrated by Madonna stans. It is nowhere near as bad as all of you say it is. Literally only a couple duds. Yeah, she cased trends but she did it PERFECTLY. So many great bops on this album that all of you WASTE. Give It 2 Me should have smashed tbh
Highlights: Give It 2 Me, Miles Away, She's Not Me, Beat Goes On, Devil Wouldn't Recognize You, Voices, Ring My Bell, the album cover shoot
Can Go Suck A Dick: 4 Minutes, Spanish Lesson
8: Like A Prayer
Blah blah blah art blah amazing blah pure artistry blah blah game changer blah blah blah. IDGAF. Yes, mature artistic game changing iconic controversial album, I agree. But some songs just didn't age well or just suck dick. Hate me. I truly respect the artistry of the album but I still find it a tad overrated. Oh Father is one of my fave songs from her.
Highlights: Like A Prayer, Express Yourself, Till Death Do Us Part, Oh Father, Keep It Together, Spanish Eyes
Can Go Suck A Dick: Love Song, Promise To Try, Dear Jessie
7: Confessions On A Dance Floor
Used to be my favorite Madonna album but some of it hasn't aged well. I still love it and think it is still almost flawless and a great comeback. This album just delivers so much. Production. Lyrics. Looks. SERVED
Highlights: Hung Up, Get Together, Sorry, Let It Will Be, Forbidden Love, How High, Isaac
Can Go Suck A Dick: I Feel Love ripoff, I Hate Myself, Push (me over a cliff)
6: American Life
An edgier Ray Of Light. She tried perfecting the formula of Music but made a few missteps but still B+ for effort. I do find this album is pretty overrated by fans because it's so edgy and SOME NOT ALL just wanna seem edgy. This album does have great moments though and she really delivers. Lyrics are SERVED (Except in a couple songs). Same with looks kinda. Nothing Fails was the hit that got away, so magical and one of my faves from her. Easy Ride is probably in my top 10 songs and is a pure masterpiece. Die Another Day is unnecessarily hated on.
Highlights: Hollywood, Love Profusion, Nobody Knows Me, Nothing Fails, Die Another Day, Easy Ride, the original American Life video
Can Go Suck A Dick: American Life, the released video of American Life
5: Ray Of Light
I used to HATE this album but I have since since the (ray of) light! Basically an updated Like a Prayer except better! Except a couple songs... Anyways, Nothing Reall Matters and Skin should have SMASHED
Highlights: Swim, Ray Of Light, Skin, Nothing Really Matters, Sky Fits Heaven, Frozen, The Power Of Good-Bye, the vocals
Can Go Suck A Dick: Shitty/Ashtray
4: Rebel Heart
I know I'm going to get hate for this album being so high but it truly is almost flaw free. Messy but still almost perfect. A couple songs should have been cut, a couple songs should not have been changed from the demo (looking at you Rebel Heart. Madonna, what's good?? Avicii slayed that version). I relate to a lot of this album and has a special place in my little gay heart. Hate me for it bitches. So underrated and should have done SO much better. Also, Bitch I'm Madonna BOPS.
Highlights: Living For Love, Devil Pray, Ghosttown, Unapologetic Bitch, Illuminati, Bitch I'm Madonna, Joan Of Arc, Iconic, Holy Water, Best Night, Veni Vidi Vici, S.E.X., Messiah, Rebel Heart, Auto-Tune Baby, Beautiful Scars, Addicted
Can Go Suck A Dick: Body Shop, Graffiti Heart
Erotic, Erotic, put your hands all over my iconic copy of this controversial album. So fucking amazing, well written masterpiece. Should have done a lot better than it did. It's dark, beautiful, heartbreaking lyrics. In my opinion, her most mature.
Highlights: Erotica, Fever, Deeper And Deeper, Bad Girl, Waiting, Words, Why's It So Hard, Secret Garden, Bad Girl video
Can Go Suck A Dick: Did You Do It?
Hate me for this, idc. I really think this is her most forgotten album. This album is really sentimental to me so it holds a special place in my heart. I had the CDS of Music when it first came out but I didn't know who it was but it slayed me and I always wondered who it was. Then in 2011, Gaga got me into Madonna and this was the first album I listened to and I stanned. This is a flawless album that should have done better, had more singles, and deserves more all together.
Highlights: Music, Impressive Instant, Runaway Lover, I Deserve It, Amazing, Nobody's Perfect, Don't Tell Me, Paradise (Not For Me), Gone, American Pie
Can Go Suck A Dick: The people who discredit this album
1: Bedtime Stories
So personal, sad, and incredibly done. There isn't a dull moment on this piece of art. Definitely underrated and deserves so much more than what it got. The singles (except Take A Bow) deserved more. Trend chasing but done immaculately. Some of the songs on this album are in my top 10 of hers. This album really speaks for itself.
Highlights: Survival, Secret, Inside Of Me, Human Nature, Forbidden Love, Love Tried To Welcome Me, Sanctuary, Bedtime Story
Can Go Suck A Dick: Your Honesty not making the album
Ryanism of the day: Don't forget to take care of yourself first
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Its been a while since Ive done this but basically this is where I share the artists I found in the cracks of the recommended on youtube.
The swedish singer can get a bit obnoxious with her rebellious lyrics, but I guess since sweden isn't fond of "smoking weed and eating pussy" Ängie doesn't shy away from her angst.
2. Emily Vaughn
At first listen, it might seem like Emily Vaughn is just another stale pop vocalist that can be replaced by anyone, but she has potential. Her songs "Think Twice" and "What Do You Want" or bops, but check out her most recent single "Mood"
3. Billie Eilish
Billie gained some popularity for her song being featured in 13 Reasons why. But as you can see by my current set I am in love with her sound and look. Bellyache is like a weird accoustic bop that turns into this house banger. Check it out
4. Rico Nasty
Rico might be a bit annoying with the autotune but I am in love with her debut record, it has this unique sound similiar to Lil Yachty but with the female flare and interesting topics
Although the cover is problematic I enjoy the majority of her new album "Lose My Cool"
It has these 80s inspired bops but also unique ones such as Dissolve which I HIGHLY recommend
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DISCLAIMER: If you're a skinny legend and care to preserve your skinny legendness, close the tab this blog entry is not for you.
I'm using times new roman for that cookbook cred, feel free to fuck off if you don't like it. Yes, the rumors are true ladies I am back by popular demandT following the release of my groundbreaking recipe for ratchet red velvet cake that I plagiarized from multiple internet blogs. THIS TIME THOOO I documented the cheesecake I made and it's baked cheesecake cause that in my opinion is the only relevant type of cheesecake and I do not fuck with the gelatin and whipped cream stuff because its gross and we only stan QUALITY I don't care if it's cheaper! It's called culturally appropriative cheesecake because it has orange and cardamom and I'm p sure that's like a Moroccan combination or sth but anyway here goes!
⅔ cup of sugar
⅔ cup of water
Pinch of salt
24 digestive biscuits (the original recipe called for graham crackers but we don't have that cause america doesn't let us have nice things)
⅓ cup butter
2 cardamom pods
1 teaspoon of ground cardamom
1 cup of sour cream
¼ of a cup of flour
32 ounces (900 grams) of cream cheese
⅔ cup of milk
1 tablespoon of vanilla extract
1½ teaspoon of cardamom
1 tablespoon of orange zest
1. Melt your butter on low heat and add in your crushed cardamom pods (by crush i mean just have them open up), and leave it on for like 10-15 minutes on the lowest setting to make brown butter it'll have more of a nutty flavour I mean you're clogging your arteries either way so you might as well get the most of it. Just make sure to NOT burn it the second you start smelling it turn it off it'd be good to go. It should have this colour or slightly darker bc of the lighting:
2. Throw your biscuits in a bag and smash them into a soft crumb, doesn't have to be too soft of crumb a little chunk is fine we all love a chunky woman.
3. Mix the butter, ground cardamom and biscuits together until combined. Fit it into the already lightly greased spring-form pan using your fingers make sure to go around all the edges, they don't have to be perfect just have it even on the bottom and set it aside.
4. Preheat the oven to 175C or 350F.
5. Mix the flour with the sour cream idk why i took a pic of this but here it is
6. Combine the cream cheese and sugar with a wooden spoon then keep mixing till most of the sugar is dissolved, it takes some time but if you can masturbate then you can do this.
7. Whisk in the eggs one egg at a time, then add in the milk. should look like this:
8. At this point it is very important to not overmix the batter, you're gonna add in the sour cream and flour mixture, then the milk and then fold in the orange zest, cardamom, and vanilla and if you're feeling very adventurous you can throw in some lemon zest as well! If it doesn't feel like lush on a stick and/or look like this throw it away and start again:
9. Pour this spicy batter to the set crust and bake it for 1 hour, the edges should puff up and there should be a slightly fluid center if you jiggle the pan: that's when you know it's ready. Turn off the heat and leave it in the oven uninterrupted for 4 hours then put it in the fridge to set for a few hours until cooled.
10. In the meantime if for some fucking reason you always end up with a crack like me (usually a result from temperature/overmixing), you can cover it up with a topping! I'm topping it with some candied orange slices. Of course you can totally ignore this and throw some marmalade that was thinned out with a bit of juice/water on top of her because life is too short buuuuuuttt I'm gonna make some just to show off anyway.
11. Combine the water, sugar, crushed cardamom and pinch of salt into a medium saucepan on medium high heat.
12. Thinly slice the orange, get the seeds out and put it into the saucepan. Once it starts boiling, lower the heat cover the pan and let it simmer for 30 minutes.
13. After 30 minutes, put them on a plate that has parchment paper on it and let it set. As for the syrup idk you can add it to your morning coffee it'll taste artisanal ig. But here's what they're gonna look like it's v easy to make them: (the black specs are cardamom im not a nastee bitch)
14. Place them on top of the cake however you want. You can cut the orange slices in half and line them around the cake except I didn't because I thought of that afterwards. Anyway, get your lives and hope you enjoyed this!! (:
I have no idea where to start, but I know I have to do this. I can’t bottle up these thoughts and feelings any longer; I need to release them so I can move on with my life and be one step closer to finding inner peace. If you aren’t interested in what I have to say that’s perfectly understandable and I respect that, but if you’re willing to hear me out your time and attention are much appreciated.
Now that the school year is over, I’ve had so much more free time to reflect on myself, specifically on my past. College has been the best time of my life so far, and one of the many opportunities it bestowed upon me was a distraction: a distraction from the pain of losing some of my best friends. They no longer wanted anything to do with me, and while in hindsight it had been bubbling up for a while, it was sudden and unexpected to me at the time. I felt betrayed and humiliated that my group of friends had seemingly conspired against me, but schoolwork and student life forced me to put it on the back-burner and confront it another day. It helped at the time by making me too busy to give it any thought, but it also never allowed me to properly deal with what I felt. As a writer I’m naturally very structured and organized, and I think all great stories should have a beginning, a middle, and an end. Mine had the first two, but the last few pages were just ripped out of the book entirely. I never got closure with my friends, whether it was “Have a great life, I wish nothing but the best for you” or “Fuck you, never contact me again.” If I had to guess, I’m sure their response would have been much closer to the latter, but even that would have hurt less than the deafening silence I received.
Two things that I really wish we could have done before parting separate ways were apologizing and forgiving. Looking back, our fights were so petty and stupid that I don’t even remember the details of what they were about, but I’m sure I was at fault most of the time. I’m not going to shift the responsibility from myself by saying I’m pretty much a different person now, because even though I may have changed a lot since then, it was still me. Instead, I’m going to own up to everything that I did wrong during the time period that we knew each other:
- I’m sorry for calling you ugly and insulting your appearance.
- I’m sorry for treating you like you were dumb and making of you for not knowing certain things.
- I’m sorry for acting like the queen bee of our group and dictating everyone else’s choices and actions.
- I’m sorry for being so obsessed with whether you or your faves did something “problematic.”
- I'm sorry for using not having eaten as an excuse to be nasty and mean.
- I'm sorry for being able to dish out criticism but not take it.
- I’m sorry for talking about you behind your back to our other friends.
- I’m sorry for trying to get you to fight my battles for me.
- I’m sorry for not being able to admit when I was wrong.
- I’m sorry for being jealous and controlling, and assuming that we were an official romantic item just because we both had crushes on each other.
- I’m sorry for continuing to mention a toxic and unhealthy environment that we left and would all be much better off not thinking about.
- I’m sure there’s more, so to cover all the bases I’m sorry for every way I’ve ever hurt you.
I also forgive you for every way you’ve ever hurt me, because there are almost as many. Life is far too short to hold onto grudges, and they’re not worth my energy. It’s not my place to tell you that you can’t continue to think of me in a negative light though, so if you don’t accept this apology then that’s fine too.
We have little to nothing in common these days, but if you were to reach out to me today I would be completely open to having a conversation and catching up. I don’t see us ever being close friends again, but I think it’s always important to be civil with someone in the long run no matter how much you dislike them in the present. Harboring resentment and ill will only leads to bitterness and bad karma, and my life is going way too well for me to allow either of those things to poison it.
As much as the dissolution of our friendship hurt me, I strongly believe that it needed to happen in order for me to grow up and change my ways. I definitely regret how I handled things with you, but I learned so much about myself and how rewarding and fulfilling the world can be once you stop being a drama queen and just enjoy life. I’m in a much better place now, and the only thing that’s missing is being able to share it with you. If you’ve made it this far, thank you for hearing me out despite what your opinion of me may be at this point in time. After I publish this I have no future plans of ever acknowledging you again without your initiation, so if this is it for us, I hope you’re doing okay, I'll never forget the good times we had together, good luck with your future endeavors, and goodbye.
I haven’t written about my life for a long time now. Maybe most of you thought I may have finally found someone. Finally found what I was looking for, but no. As of today I am starting to feel that love is just not made for me. Whenever love comes around the bad luck start.
Let’s first go back to February. In January I talked about Steve right? Well, he suddenly told me he was seeing someone now, so I was no option for him anymore. Okay, that isn’t a first for me. YAY, again!
Then something else happened. Let’s just say I tried something new. I slept with someone who I didn’t even knew on forehand and to be honest, it was kind of nice. It was maybe even the best sex I’ve had so far, but afterwards I didn’t feel right. It just isn’t made for me. I only do it when I desperate, which I was at that time.
I also had some new dates again. First off, the weirdest one. I had a date with a Syrian Refugee. I know right… But he was so hot on his pictures, I just wanted to meet him. Well, he was kind of disappointing in real life, but on the other hand. Now I got a full on source to tell me what it is like in those refugee camps and everything. I want to know about stuff like that. It was a nice afternoon, but it stayed with that. Then there was Richard, a very cute guy, with a lot of same interests as me. We drank some beers at his house and kissed. It felt quite good. But, you can already guess it so far. In the end he didn’t wanted to go through with it. He just came out of a relationship and wasn’t sure what to do now. He told me that I shouldn’t worry, that I’m a cute guy and that he actually liked me.
Yeah sure. How many times have I heard this so far now? I can’t even count them anymore.
Then there was Ferry. Also a cute guy, but his pictures were just way better. But, I actually quite liked him as a person. It felt like quite a good match. So in the end I was like, let’s try this. This could work.
But no. He didn’t want to.
I know you have written me a lot of great things. I need to hold on, I will find someone etc. But let’s be very real here. Is it normal for someone to have this bad luck in life? As of this moment I’m just not sure anymore and it just hurts me. I can't even remember if I talked about every date in this blog. Some don't even stay with me, because I get rejected and I move on. Like said before past dates all find their true match, while I just swerve from date to date and it never seems to work. In the end guys just don’t seem to like me. I’m unlovable. I’ve never felt this much pain in my head, cause I more and more feel like it just isn’t made for me. Love.
Yeah I’m 21. Yeah I will find it. Keep saying those things to me. But as of this day. When I got my new rejection, it felt more real to me. I’m lost. Maybe not everyone finds their match. Maybe there are some people who just need to live their life alone.
Maybe I am one of those. There is no love allowed for me.
Entea's Top 40: February 26, 2017
New on the scene, British singer Jack Vallier debuts at #1 with 49 plays, beating tropical house DJ Kygo's new single "It Ain't Me" by 35 plays. Also debuting in the top 10 are; Enrique Iglesias' new reggaeton pop single "Subeme La Radio" at #3, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows -- Part 1 soundtrack "O Children" by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds at #4, K-pop boy band BTS with their song "Not Today" at #5 and The Chainsmokers/Coldplay's new single "Something Just Like This" at #9. Zedd's "Stay" just misses out of the top 10 as it debuts at #16 on my chart.
E-Dubble acheieves new peaks this week with "What I Do" at #8 and "Robot's Can't Drink" at #10 and also peaking is Maduk's "Ghost Assassin" climbing to #7. The highest climber this week goes to Luis Fonsi's single "Despacito" which climbs 23 places to #13. Despite Simon Curtis dominating last and this week with multiple songs entering the charts, most fall down the chart with ""Superhero" achieving the highest faller this week dropping a huge 32 places to #39. Feel free to follow me on Last.fm.
Hey guys I have no idea how to say any of this but a few days ago i had a drug overdose (i can't remember what the pills are called though but please keep reading) and had a really bad seizure and ended up with a swollen black eye (which i can't explain how I got it so nobody even knows how it happened not even me) and ended up in the hospital and just stayed there for 3 days. It was the most miserable 3 days in the hospital of my life (then again who would enjoy doctors pinching all over your arms with needles and dealing with an IV that ended up giving you a huge ass bruise? and nurses waking you up in the middle of the night just to take your blood pressure? someone not human that's who). Ok let's back up the beginning of february where i was sitting in my Psychiatrists office. He prescribed me with pills that has 300 doses (which I was suppose to have) but i felt that wasn't enough so I asked him if he could give me bigger doses but he warned me that it wasn't very therapeutic to prescribe bigger doses than the ones already prescribed to me. But i urged him to because all i wanted was to have a better way to focus so he prescribed me with pills that have 450 doses (which yes its too much) he told me how unwise it is for me to take this much doses but i was so naiive i didn't bother to listen all i wanted was to be more attentive so i risked it anyway. Two weeks later i was sitting in my classroom just listening to my teacher telling some story but unfortunately that's all i remembered doing because the next minute i started waking up (appearently i found out i fainted not to mention my uncontrollable body shaking) confused and nauseous and i was taken to West Palm hospital to find out why that happened and the doctors said that happened because of stress and lack of eating (because remember we didnt think it was the pills that was doing this so we still had no idea) so when i came home i tried eating more and tried to lessen my stress level and to be honest i thought i was doing a good job. Until two weeks later i was in my room just looking at my dog because i just love how fat and fluffy she looked and then 20 minutes later i woke up on the floor with my left eye barely even opening and just hurting super badly and then i started feeling nauseous and i wanted to vomit in my bathroom but i couldn't move or get up so i ended up vomiting on the floor and then when i finally got the strength to get up to go to my bathroom, i heard the bathroom light on (but i never checked if it was locked or not mainly because i was in the state of not being able to think straight) so i thought someone was in there and instead just ran to my mom's bathroom and she asked me what happened (but i couldnt tell her because i wasn't even speaking direct english like nothing i was saying made sense) and then i just vomitted in her toilet, i couldn't carry my own weight so i held the sides of the toilet bowl with my hands (again i wasnt thinking so it didn't cross my mind that it was a gross thing to do) and then i started to wipe my saliva off my face with my hand (again i didn't know i was doing it) and my mom just told me to wash my hands and i did and when i looked up at the mirror i wanted to know what it is i was feeling on my right eye and when i removed my hair to see it my mom gasped and just yelled out to my dad to call 911. I was so confused as to why she would call 911 (i wasn't thinking it was a big deal) so they did and repeatedly my mom asked me "who am i?" "who am i?" and i kept telling her "my mom" "my mom". Then the ambulence came and they took me to St.Mary's hospital and i had to stay there for 3 miserable days. I hated the food, i hated getting shots, i hated the IV the ambulence guy did to me because thanks to him i have a big bruise on my right arm and i complained about it to the nurses so they had to fix it but she screwed up three fucken times and so then this male doctor came and it only took him one time so it kind of helped ease the pain a little. Still hated it though. Anyways all day i was in bed but i had visitors (my mom stayed the whole time) my dad came everyday to see me, my uncle came to see me and my boyfriend came to see me too. I remembered crying that second day i was there and my uncle, dad, and even my boyfriend just comforted me telling me everything will be ok even when i didn't feel it was going to be. I was so miserable i hated pain, sometimes i think of death as an alternative because everyone knows that once you're dead you won't be able to feel pain anymore. But i knew i had to pull through so i did no matter how much pain i was feeling physically and emotionally or how weak i could even walk or pick up my own weight i knew i was stronger than that i don't just fall down easily unless someone pushes me. I never knew when to stop at things until i know i can overcome it and when i want to achieve something i never stop until i do and my achievement for that case was i pray to God that i would be healthy enough and that my results from the MRI would be good enough for me to get the hell out of that hospital. I was lucky i got out before noon the next day ( i was SUPPOSE to get out the night before but they didnt tell the nurse the results from my MRI in time) and i couldn't be happier. Unfortunately the effects are still in my system: forgetfulness, constant drowsiness, mood changes..i can't remember the rest im so sorry guys if i had the list i would've kept going. Anyways, this is my second day being out of the hospital and ever since that day happened my mom would never leave me alone (which is good) she would check up on me every so often and would never leave me alone at home because she's scared that it might happen again if she's not around. I hope it never happens again and asides from that whole fright train overdosed fiasco, what really hurt me was watching my mom's heart break infront of me. I'm sure no mom appreciates watching their kid suffer from having seizures all because of having an overdose that they didn't know it was what really caused it. I still feel it was my fault that this happened to me. If I have never urged my Pyschiatrist to give me a bigger dose, none of this would ever happened, i would still be well without a black eye, without seizures, oh and did i mention i can't drive for 6 months because of fear that i might have a seizure if while im driving? (yeah i know it sucks..great now my parents have to drive me places like im someone without a liscence). Well, im still suffering from the effects but at least i don't have to go to school until my black eye disappears so i guess i can sleep longer in the mornings. Thanks for reading my blog guys...please keep reading because i enjoy writing to you. Before i forget..the stuff i said about Kesha and Dr.Luke, i didn't mean to imply that Kesha was a liar..in fact i wished i would take back that whole entry im so sorry guys if you took it to offense that i made you think im against her, im really not im all about #FreeKesha also i want to wish her a happy bday! i already posted a happy birthday wish on twitter (i wish i can do the same on instagram but something went wrong so i can't really post anything or comment on anything on instagram) anyways thanks for reading i'll definately see you next time i start blogging..bye i love you all
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THE FIRST EVER REVIEW BLOG ON FOTP IS OFFICIALLY BACK!
This is SYLK Reviews Back to Basic's era! So we're gonna be scoring like the old days! Using WENDY emotes!
In collab with The Wendy Emote Museum we will score each track from a minimum of 0 to a max 5 scores to each track!
For our FIRST review! We will be reviewing GLORY by THE QUEEN OF POP herself Britney Spears!
01 - Invitation
A very nice opener, the breathy tone of ha voice sounds really incredible with the aura.mp3 of the song. It's a very calm and soothing song. Really a strong opener. The lyrics are cute too yes. I give this song ..
02 - Make Me... (feat. G-Eazy)
Alot of people have been saying that they didn't like this when it came out and that it grew on them later on, but tbh this has been my jam from the moment it came out! She sounds amazing, the twangy bird noises are very cute yes and the production is very nice. The only thing that disgusts me is the G-FLOPzy's verse omfg delete that ew.
03 - Private Show
I literally don't understand the hate for this song. It's such a fun, sensual song. I do hear the weird effect in voice yes but tbh I think the cartoon-ish effect kind of adds to the song's quirky character. She SERVES vocals on here! This is definitely a fav yes. 5 wendys for this song!
04 - Man On The Moon
I think this song is soo beautiful. The lyrics are so cute and the chorus is literally the most beautiful thing we've heard from Britney so far--I mean those harmonies omg *orgasms* Another five wendys!
05 - Just Luv Me
A cute song yes but I have to be honest here I didn't care for snippets that leaked or whatever. I don't really have much to say on this track, I mean I could see myself listening to it once in awhile, or wake up one night craving it, but for now, it's undermined by some of the stronger tracks on the album.
06 - Clumsy
I won't lie, I had to pretend to like it when it first came out. It starts off well, but it loses me somewhere leading up the hook. The 'opps' is a cute reminder of the Opps I Did It Again days tho yes..
07 - Do You Wanna Come Over?
Anyone who doesn't like this iconic bop is deaf. I mean the guitars mmm fuck me they sound so good. And then the chorus hits--those backup singers snatch my wig yes ! It's a pussy bopper and one of the faves!
08 - Slumber Party
An OBVIOUS contender for 2nd Single. It follows Make Me's footsteps nicely. It has a very fun vibe. And the production is probably the best one we've seen on this album so far. One of the faves yes!
09 - Just Like Me
There might be haters out there aka @Onika and they are welcomed to kiss my ass cause this song is fucking AMAZING! She sounds amazing on it and omg the lyrics are CUTEE!! Britney's disbelieve in the other woman looking just like her gives us a BOP!
10 - Love Me Down
Definitely a stand out track from the album and a possible future single! Britney SERVES in this song. And the production oh lordy that wobbling bassline fuck! Slam me on the table and prolapse my anus queen GODNEY!
11 - Hard To Forget Ya
When I first heart it, I thought it was cute yes but then a reverse warholian expedition happened and my love for this song just disappeared. It's a cute song but ...It doesn't really go anywhere...
12 - What You Need
The mature but less beautiful sister of PriVISHNU show! She sounds amazing as well, she showcases some VOCALS ON HERE!!! Britney can SANG! Anyone who says otherwise can kiss my bum!
If this isn't the 2nd single I'll lose my mind!
Hard to Forget Ya
For a more PROFESSIONAL Review including the Deluxe tracks head over to Pop Fection!
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In distress, Trevante sits back for a few minutes in a praying position, begging God for forgiveness and strength. Diamond looks on, feeling sorry for him. “Would you like anything, Trev?”
He sniffles. “I need a ride… I’m turning myself in.”
They all get up. Trevor looks at him with shock. “Woah woah w—”
Diamond sternly hushes him before he could form another word. “It’s for the better.” She turns to Trevante. “I can drive you to the police station; you’re just too perturbed to drive yourself.”
They all get in Diamond’s car, with Trevante on the passenger side. Diamond starts the car and sees the pain on his face. “If you need to, call her.”
“Okay…” He picks up his phone and goes to call Halcyon. “I don’t know what to say…”
“Just say what’s on your mind, let it out.”
Halcyon gets out of bed late in the afternoon, wearing that same crimson lingerie from the first dance. She turns on the TV to WPTO-5. The murder trial of Trevante Rhodes will end today, the young man is accused of murdering Alvin Conley and Cosmic Moon. The jury will decide whether or not he’s a free man on Monday. She goes to the restroom to check up on herself and looks in the mirror. She notices wrinkles are starting to appear under her eyes; she hadn’t kept a regular sleeping schedule since Trevante’s arrest and it had affected her performance as a detective. I’m shocked I haven’t been laid off yet… She proceeds to take a shower, turning it up to hot to imitate his warm caresses. After a few minutes, she gets out to fill up a glass of water and takes some ibuprofen. The TV anchor is now talking about the president’s recent golf vacation. If my tax dollars went to something far more productive than a tangerine moistening on grass, I’d greatly appreciate it, she thought to herself. Suddenly, her phone rings; it’s from Maraj. She sits down on the sofa and answers. “Hello?”
“It’s me. I’m concerned about you…”
“I’m fine, don’t worry about it.” She lights up a cigarette.
“I know how close you and Trevante were, and perhaps still are.”
“I mean… it’s hard, but I’m slowly getting over it, you know.”
“Do you know his trial finishes today?”
“Yeah…” She exhales a big puff of smoke.
“Are you stable enough to testify before the court?”
“Probably. I’ll try my best to keep my emotions locked, I’ve always been good at that. I just need to get my mind off of him for a few moments…”
“Alright, I’ll see you this afternoon.”
Halcyon rubs her nose. “See you later.” She puts her phone down and goes to change into a nice outfit. She put on a snow white blouse with a black undershirt that exposed her cleavage a bit, and black bell-bottom capris with dark red heels. She brushes and straightens her hair, and puts it up in a ponytail. She then turns off the TV and grabs her phone and wallet. I think I need a drink…
Hannah is fast asleep in her master bedroom when her alarm goes off. This was not your ordinary alarm; this one sent a flying frisbee into the air and it wouldn’t turn off unless it’s put back into place. It started playing a song she loathed. GREEDYYYYY, OOOOOH. You know that I’m greedy for love! “This bitch—” She gets up and starts swinging. The disc gets stuck on the chandelier above her bed. “Well, shit. I hope this isn’t as stable as Taylor and Cody’s three-way with that quarterback…” She hangs on to the chandelier, which is surprisingly secure, and gets close to it.
Sylk enters and notices Hannah hanging firmly. “Oh my god, do you need help?”
“No. What did I say about having goats on my bed?” After some time, she finally has a grip on the disc. “Here, catch!” She throws it to Sylk. “Put it back so my ears can start healing.” Sylk puts the disc back and the music stops. Hannah gets back down and fixes her hair to the side. “Besides, I need a shower.”
“Do you not realize that Trevante will be in court today?”
Sylk stares down for a moment, but then it clicks. “Oh yes.”
“Yes sweetie, I need to be there for my partner in crime. I’ll be going solo since we need to keep it low as the cops may very well still have us on their radar. Capisce?”
“I see you’ve been learning from Pietro. I’d watch your dick if I were you…” Hannah turns her back to Sylk. “Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need to get myself ready and not in the presence of Greedy stans.”
The small courtroom is starting to get full as the clock ticks closer and closer. Maraj stands by the plaintiff's table as volunteers set up the evidence for the proceeding. “You can put that over by the knife, and make sure she’s got gloves so she won’t contaminate any of it.” She turns around and sees Hannah enter. As she approaches, they both shake hands, and Hannah then sits beside Trevante at the defendant’s table. Maraj notices some chemistry between the two, but doesn’t think anything of it. As soon as she checks her watch, Halcyon arrives. Maraj has a sudden feeling of relief. “There you are.”
Halcyon takes off her sunglasses as they both sit down. “Told you I’d be here, fresh as a daisy.”
“How did you even get here?”
“I walked. Luckily I don’t live very far and I needed some exercise.”
All RISE. An officer enters from the right side door as everyone stands up. “Judge Zolanski presiding, court is now in session.”
Judge Zolanski entered from the left side door and proceeded to walk her way to the desk. “Good afternoon, everyone. I just had myself some Starbucks to keep myself in check. You all can sit now.” The officer hands over a folder with information about the case. “Thank you, Tinasha.” She puts on some reading glasses as she fixes her curly blonde hair. “So, this is Case #8738268374, against Mr. Rhodes. For the last time in this trial, will you please stand?” Trevante stands, while Hannah remains seated, looking at him with a poker face. “It is my understanding that you are being charged with 2 counts of first degree murder; one for the death of Mr. Conley and the other for Mr. Moon. Correct?”
She takes off the glasses. “Do you understand that these charges combined can have you imprisoned for a decade, at minimum?”
“Last question: do you understand that you are innocent until proven guilty?”
Hannah lowers her eyes as Trevante clears his throat. “Y-yes, ma’am.”
“Ok, let’s begin. Bring out the jury. Detective Banks, step forward.” Trevante sits back down as Halcyon walks over to the evidence in front of her. The jury is then summoned and they all sit at their respective seats. She puts on the gloves that have been left there earlier. The judge folded her hands. “You can begin.”
“Ok, so—” Halcyon begins pointing at the objects. “—what I have here are bloodstained posters, a knife, a handgun, and this… ‘hand.’”
“Can I stop you there?” Judge Zolanski asks in confusion. “Is this for or against the defendant?”
“Neither. We tried not be biased in any way and we performed the appropriate procedures to determine whether or not the suspect’s DNA is on any of these matter.”
Convinced, she lets Halcyon continue. “Carry on.”
Halcyon picks up the stack of posters. “So these flyers, that may have been supposed to be put up around the time of Mr. Conley’s murder, have his blood on them. Also, they have his fingerprints on them, so he may have had them in his hands during the incident.” She puts down the stack and points at the hand. “Now, to this thing. When we dug this up shortly after, we were convinced that this was an actual, decomposing hand; there were ants all around it as if they were eating up the decaying skin. But, as it turns out, that’s not the case—”
Someone in the audience shouted out. WHAT?! “Order!” Judge Zolanski bangs the gavel down once.
“I say this because when we brought it into our lab, we found out that the critters weren’t feeding on the skin; they were feeding on the blood. We then realized that it wasn’t real skin… it was wax; a very well made wax sculpture of Mr. Conley’s hand, which is not creepy at all. The ‘blood’ is actually just very pure ketchup, which explained why the ants were after that instead.”
“Wow, this just escalated a bit quickly…” Judge Zolanski puts her hand on her hand, trying to figure out what the hell was just said. “What about the gun and the knife?”
“Well, we felt these were used during Mr. Moon’s murder.” Halcyon clears her throat, trying not to get emotional. “We’ve done the DNA examinations for both the gun and the knife.” She picks up the gun. “This is, obviously unloaded, a semi-automatic pistol. We found fingerprints on this and found no match from the suspect.” She then picks up the knife. “This is a small pocket knife. What I personally found a bit suspicious on this knife, is the engraving. H.Suarez.” Hannah turns to Halcyon’s direction. “I don’t know who this person is, but I’m assuming he or she has something to do with this case, because the DNA on this knife doesn’t match the suspect either.”
“Well then, uh… Any final statements for the jury?”
“Yes… He may not have touched any of this, but it doesn’t mean he’s completely innocent, neither does it make him completely guilty.” Halcyon glances at Trevante. “This is only the beginning.”
“Good enough. Jury, you know what to do. The lawyers will have their final statements ready in a little bit, but until then, I call for a recess.” Judge Zolanski hits the gavel twice and then leaves from the same door that she came in.
All RISE. As everyone gets up to go their own ways, Halcyon stands there, with her hands on the table as she looks at Trevante. Trevante blows her a kiss as he is escorted back into jail. She catches it as a single tear falls on her cheek. I definitely need a drink, no more than two…
Hannah stares on as Halcyon and Maraj leave at the main entrance. “Peasants…” Her phone starts vibrating in her pocket; it’s from Lily. “Hey lover. I was about to exit the courthouse.”
“Well, good because I need to let you know about something.”
“Ok, what happened?”
She laughs ecstatically. “We been knew, sweetie! Have him come over and tell him that dinner is ready.”
Halcyon walks over to the bar across the street and sits herself down. The bartender welcomes her and asks if she wants anything. “I’d like two Blue Moonlights, please.” He nods and gets to work. She looks around to watch one of the many flat-screen TVs in the place; a few sports anchors are doing a football season review and are speaking in jargon that she doesn’t really understand. Trying not to get too confused, she looks around for someone to chat with, and catches her eye on this one handsome man sitting by himself on a booth. When the bartender gives her the two shots, she gives him $20. “You can keep the change.” He smiles and goes to the next patron.
Halcyon grabs the two drinks and walks up to the man, who was watching the same TV that she did. “Do you mind if I sit down with you? You look lonely…”
The man smiled. “Sure!”
She sits down and raises one of the glasses. “Wanna shot?”
“Don’t mind if I do.”
He takes the other glass and they toast each other. They divulge the shots and put the glasses down simultaneously. As they cool off a bit from the burn, Halcyon sits up. “So… what do you do for a living?”
“I play football…”
“Professionally. The NFL.”
“Wow…” She looks into his eyes as she gets interested. “That must be very rough…”
“It is…” He starts talking with his hands. “But I’m just eternally grateful to be doing what I love and loving what I do. I bow down and pray to the Lord each and every night, to try to fix all of my wrongs and to make every day better than the last.”
“Now, what do you do for a living?”
“I work as a detective for the police department here.”
“Oh, that’s cool!”
Halcyon’s curiosity rises. “Are you from here?”
“Nah, actually I’m from Jacksonville.”
“Oh, that’s not far from here! What made you decide to visit?”
“One of my brothers suggested me to vacation here and all he had were positive thoughts, so I decided to stay here for the week. Everything’s pretty spot on so far, so I may stay longer.”
“Wow, I’m glad you’re enjoying it here. It really is a fun town once you get familiar with everything.” She looks down for a moment and then back at him. “What’s your name?”
“Rashad Jennings,” he says with a wide smile on his face. “And yours?”
She puts her hands behind her head so she can take out her ponytail. “Halcyon Banks,” she says while straightening out her hair. “But you can call me Hal.”
“Hal…” He nodded. “What a lovely name.”
“It is…” She fixed her hair away from her face. “My parents were pacifists. They thought that solving conflicts with violence was like spreading a wildfire; it would only do more harm than it would do any good. So, when I was conceived, they wanted to pass on that gift of peace…”
“So they named you Halcyon…”
“After the bird… and that’s how I found my calling to be a detective. To help bring peace and justice to those who need it…”
“I have huge respect for people in uniform. It must be a stressful job.”
“It is very tough, mentally… but being able to bring some closure is what motivates me to keep doing it.” She looks up at the TV as the anchors are now discussing Rashad’s statistics during the season; she doesn’t understand the numbers, but judging from the positive feedback, those numbers must mean something. “Impressive…”
“Mmhmm…” He scratches his chin. “It takes a lot of grindin’ to get up there.”
“Well, I do love a strong and handsome man,” she says as she raises her eyebrow.
He smiles. “And I love a tough and gorgeous woman…”
She blushes. I’ve never had such a passionate conversation with a man before. They lock eyes to each other, and Halcyon instantly feels a connection. But then she checks her watch; it’s about 6 o’clock. “I’m sorry, uh, I gotta get back h—”
“I can take you there if you’d like.”
She stops. “Really? You’d do that for me?”
He smirks. “Really. My little red Corvette is parked just over here.”
“Ok…” She stares, still captivated over his physique. “Let’s go.”
“Yesterday was insane. You and your friends were really into the groove.”
“Yeah, we try we try.”
It was late in the morning, in a nice and luxurious hotel suite near Orlando. Diamond and Trevor are laying next to each other, and the bed is still roughed up from all of the commotion. Trevor zips up his jeans as Diamond checks her nails. “Do you know whatever happened to that Slay kid?”
She finds a hangnail and tears it out slowly. “Last time I heard from her was about a month ago, and she said she was going to Miami for something. I haven’t heard back from her since.”
“But, what I do know is that room service is going to have a field day trying to clean up this shit.”
He goes around and leans in close to her. “Well I’m gonna have a field day on y— oh wait, I already did that.”
She cackles. “Aw stop it, babe…” They share a kiss for a moment. “This week has been phenomenal. Just me and you, all to ourselves… we’re like a perfect couple on our honeymoon.”
“Yes, which reminds me…” He gets up to get something out of the nightstand.
“What’s going on?”
Trevor comes back with a small black box that fit the palm of his hand, and kneels before her. “Ms. Diamond Barrett…” He opens the box, unveiling an expensive silver ring. “Will you marry me?”
Stunned, she tries not to choke up as she puts the ring on her right hand. “Yes… yes of course I do!”
They lean against each other once more and start to make out, but stop before it got too intense. “Maybe we should get back home.”
“Yes, we should… before we get caught.”
Back at 69 Skinny Lane, there are repetitive knocks on the main door. Hannah swiftly puts on a pink lace robe to cover up her body as she hears it from the distance. The knocks become thunderous. “Coming! Hold your damn stilettos!” Hannah dashes out of her room, down the stairs, and into the foyer, all without tripping over the tail of the robe. She then opens the door and acts as if nothing dramatic had just happened. “Hi! You must be Jay.”
“Yes I am. I assume somebody here called and needed a bodyguard—”
“Indeed, that person would be me.” She smirks and blinks her eyes repeatedly.
“Do you have a specific timeframe that you’d want me around?”
“Not really, but, if I may ask, do you live alone?”
“Yeh, but I don’t have an actual roof—”
“Good, because I have a room available that you to stay in for a while.”
“Oh wow, thank you.”
“No problem… I just have one condition.” Hannah suddenly gives him a stern glare. “Don’t you tell anyone about what goes on here. Otherwise… you can find yourself back on the streets looking for a new client and you’ll regret ever meeting me. Deal?”
They both shake hands.
“Okay, we’re gonna be good friends.” As they both enter into the mansion, Hannah fixes her robe as it almost exposed her right breast. “And trust me, I’m not a whore.”
Halcyon gets back home after a long day at the gym. Worn out, she lays down and relaxes on the sofa, feeling the cool breeze on her sweaty skin. As she takes long deep breaths, her phone suddenly goes off; Diamond had texted her. Have any plans 4 monday 😊
Shall we meet up @ the office? I can set a reservation for 4
“Sounds like a plan ❤️”
Ok ttyl 😉
Halcyon throws the phone onto the coffee table and takes a long needed nap, to relax herself from all of the stress and anxiety that has surrounded her for so long.
Once done texting Halcyon, Diamond turns her phone off and starts the car. Trevor looks at her with questioningly. “Why do you do that?”
“Because the last thing we need is to get killed the very day we got engaged.”
“True…” He goes back to his phone, scrolling through his Instagram feed.
“Should we stop by Hannah’s place before we arrive? It won’t be for a while though.”
“Whatever you’d want, baby.”
She blushes. “But, in the meantime… I found this drive-in theater a few miles from here and they’re gonna play Moonlight, maybe you and I can watch it together, under the moonlight…”
At dusk, and after many miles and countless hours of driving, Diamond and Trevor pull into 69 Skinny Lane, exhausted. Diamond fixes her hair out of her face and into a ponytail. “We’re only gonna be here for a few minutes, she wants to ask me something.”
“Ok, but why would she ask you?”
“I don’t know, but I’m not gonna say no.”
They both get out and knock on the door, only to have Jay answer. “Who are you two?”
Diamond gulps up a bit. “Hi, we are just—”
“Let them in.” Hannah walks up from behind. “They don’t bite.”
They both follow Hannah inside, and she points to an empty chair. “Trevor, can you sit here for a minute? Me and your fiancée need to discuss something privately.”
Diamond becomes startled. “How did you know I—”
“I saw the ring—it’s beautiful by the way.”
They climb up the stairs as Cody walks by. “Oh look who decided to show up.”
Irritated, Hannah raises her hand. “Now is not the time for your bullshit, red head.”
After a relaxing meeting with Rashad, Halcyon decides to call it a night; she got his phone number, which was a feat in itself since she’s never had that opportunity. I guess the third time really is a charm… She strips down to a carmine red outfit and puts on a snow white robe. She sits down and turns on the TV to watch the latest episode of Scandal, waiting for him to come over. After a few moments, she gets up and grabs a match to light up a special candle, and the smell of jasmine fills the room.
Hannah enters her bedroom with Diamond, and closes the door behind her. “I need a short break from my minions like honestly…”
“I can imagine.”
They both sit on the bed. “Let me be honest, I like you. I really do… I normally don’t ask anyone for favors, but before you go back, I need to ask you something.”
Diamond gets closer. “Ok…?”
“Where does Halcyon live?”
She widens her eyes. “Why would you wanna know that?”
“We live off of gossips and scandals, I thought you knew this already.”
Diamond has questions. “But, don’t you already know where she lives?”
“Yes sweetie, which leads me to ask you the real favor… send the tape.”
“How do you know I have it?”
“I can track whatever happens to my files. And also you’re welcome for giving you material to please your lady wood with.”
She gasps. “Shut up… fine, it’s a deal.”
There is a knock on the door. Halcyon blows out the match after lighting the candle. “Come in!” Rashad enters the apartment wearing a brown dress shirt and jeans with a gold chain hidden underneath. Halcyon walks over and hugs him. “Hey! It’s nice to see you again.”
“It’s nice to see you, too.”
She feels her hands on his arms. “Would you like to talk and maybe… a massage?”
“Oh yes, I desperately need one tonight.”
She smiles. “Well… let’s go, I have my bed all squared away.”
As she and Hannah walk out into the hallway, Diamond is still puzzled. “I still have one question.”
“Why did you leave me here to burn?”
Hannah turns around. “I didn’t. You were the one who called me first—”
“Yes because I needed some help—”
“And you’ve got your help yet you’re still not satisfied.”
“I am satisfied—”
“Then what are you bitching about?”
Diamond becomes dumbfounded. “I…”
“That’s what I thought.” They continue walking down into the foyer and Hannah makes the call. “GET YOUR ASSES OVER HERE, IT’S TIME TO ASSEMBLE.”
On the bed, Rashad takes off his shirt and lies on his chest with his arms wrapped under his head. “Since when did you learn to be a masseuse?”
Halcyon swings her hair to her right as she puts lotion on her hands. “During my first year of police training, my ex started having pains in his lower back, so I taught myself the art of massaging when I had the time.”
“Did he enjoy it?”
“Oh yes he did.” She rubs the lotion on her palms. “I did it a couple times a week, and his pain was gone in about a month.”
As she starts applying pressure on his shoulders, the release hits him almost immediately. “Oh… my goodness, that feels great…”
She smirks as she continues to massage around his shoulder area. “I told you.”
“Yeah, I’ve been in need of one in a while.”
“I bet.” She starts rubbing around his lower back. “All of those vigorous workouts can really stiffen up your muscles.”
“Yes, especially since I run all over the place within a 360 foot radius.” He moans as she continues massaging him. “How’s life been lately for you?”
“Well, seeing my boyfriend in a jumpsuit sets me off a bit, but all in all I’ve been doing great.”
“Yes…” She stops to go put moisturizing cream on her hands. “Do you know him?”
“Yeah, we’re actually close friends.”
She starts rubbing the cream all over his back. “I see…”
In the dining area, the group is fully assembled. “Taylor. Cody. Sylk. Eithne. Lily. My fellow sluts. We are gathered here tonight for a special mission,” Hannah speaks with Diamond standing beside her.
“To find out that Kylie is truly a global legend?” Eithne speaks out.
“No, because we would be out there all night and find absolutely nothing.”
“Kylie local,” Taylor mumbles and snickers.
Eithne elbows her. “Shut the fuck up.”
“...anyways, with the help of Diamond here, I have come up with an idea that may haunt our little detective for a while. But the first thing we need to do is go over to her residence.”
“Why?” Cody asks.
“Oh…” She smirked ominously. “I’m glad you asked. Follow me this way.” They all get up and walk towards the main door. “Jay, guard the house; me and my minions are gonna have some fun.”
Halcyon washes her hands in the master bathroom. “How was that?”
Rashad sits up to stretch and feels refreshed. “That wasn’t bad at all. Better than paying some hundred dollars for a poor job.”
She sits down next to him. “Would you like anything else?”
He thinks about it for a moment, but looks back at her flirtatiously. “Just a touch…”
Halcyon is shocked at first, but becomes aroused. “And a rhythm…” She slowly takes off her robe to reveal her red lingerie as they start gaining chemistry. She turns around, and he caresses her from behind. She feels something pumping. “Master of anticipation…”
Rashad mumbles to himself. “I hope my girl doesn’t—”
She gets caught off guard. “You already have somebody?”
“Nah, it’s just my ex… I don’t want her to find out about this or she’s gonna ruin me.”
Reassured, she gets back into the mood. “Okay…” She starts touching all over him. “Promise not to tell Trevante?”
He smirks. “I promise…”
She turns back around and gives in to his lust. “Don’t you keep it all to yourself now…”
Hannah drives the black-red SUV towards the Venus Inn with Diamond on the passenger side. “How this vehicle can hold seven people is beyond me.”
Hannah shrugs. “Well, we’re used to it.” Lily, Eithne, Cody, Taylor and Sylk are all sitting in the back. As soon as they arrive, it starts to rain. “Shit, I forgot it’s June. Quick, someone get the camera before Hurricane Angelus begins pouring down delusion!”
Sylk grabs the Nikon camera from the floor and as soon as she opens the door, Taylor pushes her out, sending her spiraling out onto the property. “You son of a—”
“Haha, cunt!” Taylor shouted. “See you in a minute.” She closes the door as the vehicle is parked near the complex.
Now soaked, Sylk goes to hide somewhere under the roof and checks the camera. It turns on. “Thank Legendriah Iconrey this thing is waterproof…” She goes to find a staircase. “Now, where the hell is Room 57?”
Rashad and Halcyon make out as he gets on top of her. Halcyon stops for a moment and puts her arms around his neck. “Are you ready to give this Corvette a test drive?”
He leans in as he lets down his guard. “You bet…”
They resume making out as he begins to thrust. Skin to skin, her arms are now wrapped tightly around his face as she tries to find a place to breathe. Her phone starts to go off. Diamond has sent you an attachment. “J-just ignore it…”
“Are you sure…?”
“Yes… I’ll take care of it tomorrow…”
All of a sudden, there is a quick flash outside the window, followed by a loud crash, sounding almost like a gunshot. They both look in that direction, and Rashad is shocked. “What the hell just happened?”
“Probably heat lightning, it does that everytime it rains here…” She turns his face back. “It’s nothing to worry about…”
He shakes his head. “Well… I have your word.”
Halcyon puts her left hand on her chest and her right hand on his. “And you have my heart…”
Sylk walks around the balcony and finds an open window to the bedroom, seeing Rashad’s bare ass. “I’m jealous… oh yes…” She sets up the camera to take a shot when suddenly some lightning hits close. Astonished, she loses her balance and falls off the railing, landing face first onto the grass. With only a few scratches, she slowly gets up as the vehicle speeds by and comes to a halt.
“Get in bitch, MC14 is leaking!”
Sylk suddenly rushes over and gets in the car. Hannah forcibly hits the gas pedal and the car charges away from the apartment. Within a minute, they come back to the mansion, only to find a large fire burning from behind. They all get out of the car as Jay rushes over to them. “Girls, I got some bad news—”
“A tree is on fire,” Cody bursts out indifferently. “It’s fine, nothing will happen.”
Hannah is shook. “But… this isn’t just any tree, skank.”
“What’s so special about it?”
She turns around to face Cody, with her eyes filled with concern. “It’s Goosey’s Gun.”
Halcyon checks herself out in the bathroom. She fluffs her hair as her bed hair game is strong, and washes her face. As soon as she starts drying off, she hears a deep and barely audible voice. Look at yourself, Hal.
She slowly puts down the towel. “Who are you?”
Who do you think? She looks back at the mirror and sees silhouette of a slim man appearing from behind. The person standing before you, isn’t you. She was once brave, now she is weak. She was once honest, now she is treacherous. She was once beautiful, now she is inferior.
“I’m still all of those adjectives and more, thank you.”
You may be, but you’ve imprisoned yourself. You may have tried to free yourself, but you threw away the key. The man walks up beside her. Tell me, what the fuck happened to you?
Halcyon becomes infuriated. “Nothing, you—” She suddenly sees herself punching the mirror, spreading broken glass everywhere. Some of the glass gets punctured into her hand and is now a bloody mess. Feeling lightheaded, she puts her other hand on her head and turns around, just to see she’s alone once again.
But then, she feels something tap on her shoulder, and she hears him again, this time more clearly. Hello… it’s me…
“Oh, fuck—” She loses consciousness and collapses, leaving behind a small pool of blood and a big price to pay.
Characters featured on this episode:
@Diamond as Diamond Barrett
@Halcyon as Halcyon Banks
@Chapman. as Alvin Conley (special guest; mentioned)
@Cosmic as Cosmic Moon (special guest; mentioned)
@Maraj as Maraj Kaplan
@Hannah as Hannah Suarez
@Sylk as Sylk Bird
Pietro Boselli (mentioned)
Onika as Judge Zolanski (special guest; uncredited)
@TattooedHeart as Lily Spencer
Rashad Jennings (special guest)
@Dr. Slay as Slay Le (mentioned)
Jayceon "The Game" (special guest)
@Daenerys as Cody Knox
@Taylor as Taylor Carillo
@Aidan. as Eithne Burke
Did I lie when I said this episode was gonna be fairly long?
Stay tuned for the season finale to find out what happens next! There will be drama, and lots of it.