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    My signatures are an integral part of fotp history, and I will list them below.

    It’s hot outside and sit on my porch, sucking a popsicle. It’s cherry flavor, their favorite flavor was always cherry. I sit and reminisce about the times we spent together. And I don’t feel  sad, because those memories bring me happiness. I finish up my popsicle just as they call me inside, they’re still here with me. But I still think about our memories, so that I’ll nver forgot them when they’re gone. I sometimes wish we lived forever. Just look at world now, Normani is gone, Ally is gone, Dinah is gone, Lauren is gone, and I’m still standing. My name is Camila Cabello, and I want to take you on a journey through the development and creation of my most personal album yet, simply titled M(e)ila. Put your safety goggles on now, this is where the darkness comes to light...

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    I was on various drugs when I chose this username, and now I must suffer the consequence of it. This is not a publicity stunt, I’m actually worried for my mental health. Please if anyone is reading this, please help me. Please buy Charmbracelet on iTunes , you know the shtick. Send me receipt verification, and then I’ll get better. Please, please, please do this for your friendly neighborhood troll, I know you want to see more of me in this upcoming year. Please do this for me and help me, and help him.

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    It was unusually chilly this Halloween night. I had decided to attend one of my towns infamous Halloween party’s that night, and was enthralled. The party was excellent, lots of people had really great costumes and I had gone as a pirate. The party was on the outskirts of my small town a little whiles away in the wood. I had drunkily dozed off in One the tents, and when I had awoken everyone had already gone. I checked my phone and it was around 1am. I only had 3% battery so I had about enough to make one call, I decided to try my local taxi service, Brocka Taxis. My town was very small, and at the time didn’t have Uber or Lift. Luckily, they picked up and said I was lucky I had called as they were doing their last drives of the night. They said the wait would be around 30 minutes so I waited in silence. My phone died shortly after the call, I stood by the street I walked to in the cold. I watched my breath in the freezing air to pass the time. A little time after, I saw the headlights of a car begin to materialize in the distance. I waved my hands and they honked on notice. The slowly pulled up to me and I read the little motto I had come to know. “Brocka Taxis, We’ll never say never!”. I was glad at that time, cause if they could I’d be stranded here. I got in the taxi and was greeted to a rather good looking women in her late 20s. I said hi and introduced myself just to be cordial, she replied back “Hello, I’m Brandy, where are you headed?”. My stomach dropped and I almost gasped. “Excuse me what did you say?”, I questioned nervous. “I said Hi, I’m Brandy, where are you headed?”, she replied with a slight giggle at the end. I saw her shoot me deathly glare in the rear view mirror along with a taunting smile. Desperate, I told her my location, she smiled and what she said next to me stunned me. “Ah, I know where that is, we’ll have to take the freeway though, that sound good?”. She smiled with that again, I shuddered. We sat in silence for minutes, even though they felt like hours, as she awaited my response. I gathered all the courage I had in me and replied, “No, no thank you actually”. She chuckled slightly to herself, and unlocked the doors, I had no idea she had even locked them. I got out and immediately started walking back the other direction, I heard her start to drive along side me and I held my head down. “You have a safe night” she said as she drove on off. I looked up shortly after and the car was gone, not a skid mark or anything just vanished. It was a long dark walk home that night, my only company the Full moon. 

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    My sweet sweet nana loves gays, but gays like me, you see. I’m normal, my nana loves me because I don’t act like a typical gay. One day my nana saw to gays kissing on tv, she turned the channel and whispered a silent prayer to God, “damn them to hell god, and abomination”. I giggled, it’s ok my sweet nana loves gays, gays like me. Another time I recall, my nana was walking to the store and saw to young teen boys holding hands, “Disgusting!” She screamed, the ran out of embarrassment. She told me when she got home, I lightly chucked to myself this time, my sweet nana loves gays, gays like me. One day I was in my room, dancing around to toxic, when my nana barged with laundry, “what the fuck are you doing! Come pray with me now!”, i was embarrassed,  but I was acting weird. So we prayed, and she’s looked at me a little funny since. But i guess it’s ok, my nana loves gays, gays like me? 

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    Ugh, I dread the day I turn 30. I know it’s so so far away, but it scares me. That’ll be the day my life ends, I’ll be a old fart rocking in chair by the fireplace reminiscing about how things used to be. Mariah Carey will be playing on the radio, no nevermind, it’ll be playing on whatever music technology my grandkids leave for me on table. They’ll barely visit their poor old grandpa. Every second will feel like years as I await my imminent death. Those below the age of 25 will laugh at me as I leave my house to get the mail. Spitting in my face, calling me a “old fag”. I’ll run, no limp, back into the house using my walker. I’ll cry, and wait until mother Mariah calls me back to the Lovely Place to live with her for all eternity. Where she lives there’s no beginning and there is no end, and it’ll feel like you’re dreaming, but you won’t be sleeping. 

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    “Happy Black History Month” reads the status posted by fotpforums user @DespunkThoseFawkingBawls

    “Ugh leave this forum you fucking annoying race baiting freak” replies user @Madonna despite the status just being posted 4 seconds ago. 

    It may be 3:32am where the madonna stanning user lives. But that didn’t stop him from logging and and checking Winnie’s post history for updates. Just like it didn’t stop him the other 2321 times. 

    “This will make him leave!” The Madonna Stan thinks, a demented smirk sprawled across his face. He sits inches away from the HP laptop screen, the 376x282 low definition display burning his corneas to a crisp. But he doesn’t care. He never cares.

    All her cares about is the moment when Winnie wakes up, and sees that notification. How will he feel? Will he weep? Will he become enraged? Will he wallow in sorrow? Or will he ignore the notification, just like the other 674 stacked in his notification box from the same user. 

    The madonna user wonders if he’ll ever be acknowledged again. And for a brief moment he wonders if his efforts are in vain? Should he perhaps put this energy somewhere productive? But he doesn’t like thinking logically. It hurts his head. 

    He steps two feet over to his twin-sized mattress, nuzzled comfortably in the corner of his 6x6 room. His head lays roughly on the bare mattress, not a bed sheet or pillow in site. As he drifts off to sleep, the stinging sensation from screen watching for 13 hours still present. A smile sprawls across his face. “I bet he’ll be pressted” he thinks as he drifts off to sleep.

    But I won’t be, and I never am. 

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  3. Hey gurls

     

    So I work in music publishing and work with songwriting/song info. I won't have access to this info for much longer, so if you have any requests for credit splits/songwriting credits/how much a song is earning this month, for pretty much any song, leave your requests here and I can fetch the info for you :)

     

    Example: You want to to know how much songwriting credit each songwriter of New Rules by Dua Lipa is getting:

    Ailin Caroline, 33.33%

    Ian Eric Kirkpatrick, 33.33%

    Emily Warren Schwartz, 33.33%

    (half of their percentages go to their publishers)

     

    The shares aren't always split evenly, sometimes some artists who claim to write these songs are only getting 1-2% while their cowriters have 25% or even up to 50% of the work. So anything you are curious about feel free to ask (and then use the receipts in BG)

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    Hi

    I had the urge to do this so here it is. I've never played Skyward Sword for some reason (Please port it to Switch thx)

    Anyway let's see here - I will be ranking from lowest to highest

    A note that I love every game here and this is actually very hard to do

     

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    The Wind Waker

    This was my 1st Zelda game. I rarely re-play this game now, but do enjoy it when I pick it back up. However, I feel like this is kind of the odd one out in an immaculate run of 3D games (including this one). I have nothing against the cartoon art style per se, but it does feel very different to all the other games. Everything down to the over the top sound effects and funny looking enemies is very different to the more realistic style of the games before and after this. I think it's certainly the most light-hearted Zelda game out of the 3D run. Furthermore, something that drags this game down a bit for me is that it feels a bit empty overall. It's a huge sea with islands, and at times it feels like there is an absence of an overworld. The idea and concept was excellent and I think it was executed well with the style, but I wish there were a little more within the game

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    Breath of the Wild

    I feel like this placement will get me shot but this is my TRUTH

    I absolutely love this game and in many ways it was the breath (pun intended) of fresh air the series needed. However, at the same time it removed so much of what makes the series what it is. The massive open world concept is something that was for sure needed in the series. Though at the same time the removal of traditional dungeons and a more story driven element was frankly a mistake. A lot of things feel very copy paste and repetitive when it comes to the dungeons and its bosses; even the shrines which are like mini dungeons feel samey after a while. The world is also so huge that the story that is present is kind of forgotten in all of the options you have. I've honestly found myself exploring for hours (and sometimes getting frustrated when all I'm doing is running through empty space) then coming back to a main story element and being like oh right there's an objective

    This being said, the freedom that the game allows you is amazing and is something that should remain in the series from now on. Despite some empty spaces, there really is a whole world to be explored. BOTW is an excellent game, but as a Zelda game it leaves something to be desired overall. Going forward I hope they keep the open world, restore more traditional dungeons and have a stronger story driven element

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    Ocarina of Time

    My 2nd Zelda game, as it came with my copy of The Wind Waker! This game is an absolute classic and set up many of the elements we still see within Zelda

    This game has a strong story and objective. The thing I like most about this game is the fact that you go from being a child to an adult in one of the biggest game twists ever! This makes for a rich lore element that we see throughout the entire game. The dungeons in this game are some of the absolute best and were the precedent for the games that followed. I especially love that the later dungeons (Shadow and Spirit) make use of the time travel element within the game, thus extending this part of the quest

    There is not too much that drags this game down. A couple things I have to criticize the game on is the lack of side quests (I can name like, 3) and the overall emptiness of the overworld (Hyrule Field lowkey creeps me out cause there's legit no one except for The Running Man

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    Majora's Mask

    This game is obviously very similar style wise to OOT as it is built directly off of its engine. However, I feel like it takes the feel of Ocarina of Time and enhances it even more. This game might have only 4 dungeons, but it expands on the overall world and story

    This game has an incredibly rich story that involves you literally saving the world. It is certainly an extremely dark game, with some of the darkest aspects ever seen in Zelda, and they are executed very well. MM also needs to be commended on the expansive overworld, which feels full of life unlike the OOT world. The spectrum of side quests with timed NPC schedules is an outstanding aspect of this game, and blows OOT out of the water completely in that sense - the world really feels alive. It is not a very long game overall considering the main quest, but the side quests really do drive this game and make for a holistic playing experience. Being able to collect different masks and transform is another exciting twist to this game that builds on what OOT started

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    Twilight Princess

    From the light-hearted WW back to a more realistic and dark Zelda - I have to say right away that this game does appear like an attempt to re-establish stans that were critical of the style of WW

    In some ways, this game does rehash several elements of OOT and MM (i.e. Having Forest, Fire and Water themed dungeons), but again I think this game expands on those ideas and makes them the best they can be. I honestly think this game has the best story out of all 3D Zeldas, with many twists and turns. It is also extremely dark and actually scary in several parts. I love that you have your good old Hyrule, as well as a whole dark world of Twilight that takes over for much of the game. The overworld here is huge, but honestly does kind of feel a bit empty again in some places, but that is made up for with places like Castle Town and the huge spectrum of dungeons throughout the game. This game is very very long, but it never gets boring. It actually kind of has two, even three tiers to it because there are several well-executed objectives. TP also features some of what I feel are the series best (and most unique) dungeons. These being Arbiters Grounds, Snowpeak Ruins, Temple of Time. I absolutely love these dungeons as well as the bosses within them (Except for TOT tbh lol). I have to criticize the game a bit for the re-appearance of Ganon. For much of the game you are lead to believe Zant is the core antagonist, which he is until Ganon pops in somewhat unexpectedly

    I feel like this is a bit unnecessary - The game was effective with Zant as the core antagonist and the inclusion of Ganon seems extra in a sense. Regardless, this is my favourite game because it offers a rich story as well as entertaining, lengthy playing time. I love the Twilight and I would really like for them to visit this again (I actually had a dream where there were the towers from BOTW but they were within the Twilight like in TP before collecting all the tears to get rid of it - Nintendo GET ON IT)

    Overall, this series has put out consistently good material. Out of the 3D titles, they have not put out a bad game. I am sure whatever is next will continue the legacy

  4. Top 5 Albums

     

    05. Taylor Swift - Reputation

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    04. Lorde - Melodrama

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    03. Goldfrapp - Silver Eye

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    02. The Killers - Wonderful Wonderful

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    01. Ryan Adams - Prisoner

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    Artists that disappointed me

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    Haim started so well with a clip of Right Now before the release of the first single. It was so raw and emotional. However, later it turned out the song was reworked for the album. Many songs are too light and jolly. The worst part is that they sound the same. It isn't a bad album overall, but after a cool debut, I expected more. This was too commercial for Haim.

     

    The 4th album of Hurts becomes even more commercial sounding. Songs have cliche lyrics and basic production. Hurts are the best when they get darker lyrically and production wise. 

  5. "I Don't Know Her!": Fantastic Albums You Might Not Know!
    Give 'Em a Chance!

    I'm going to attempt to use this blog to give credit to albums which, in my opinion, are underrated or just unknown in general. You may not like my choices, and that's okay! But trust me when I say you can find beauty in any art if you give it a chance <3 

    This Entry's Underrated Album: Rabbits on the Run by Vanessa Carlton

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    Vanessa Carlton first made her appearance on the pop scene with the massive hit "A Thousand Miles," which is known now a days for being a cult classic more than an actual chart topper. To many, this song was Vanessa Carlton's only notable song, cementing her status as a "one-hit-wonder." Many people were not even aware that the single was accompanied by the debut album Be Not Nobody, assuming that the single was the only work released to the public. However, not only did she create one album, but five albums in total. 


    Vanessa, like many other popstars at first, was a slave to the image that her label concocted for her. The music she desired to create was not something the general public or the record label was interested in. Her first three albums were specifically pop, generally following the same pattern. While artistic growth in terms of complexity and writing styles were still strikingly prevalent as the albums progressed from her first, second (Harmonium), and third albums (Heroes and Thieves), nothing really prepared her small group of fans to the shift she would take in her fourth. 


    Finally able to release music she was truly interested in, Vanessa began to craft what is, in my humble opinion, her greatest work to this date. After a long hiatus that spanned 2007 to 2011 (release year), Rabbits on the Run was finally available to the public. The album itself spawned no successful singles, it received good reviews by critics. Stephen Erlewine from AllMusic remarked that "This [was] music made with no audience in mind: it is strikingly personal." And it shows. Carlton shifted drastically from pop music directly to an indie-like approach. 

     

    What this album aesthetic feels like to me:
    When I listen to this album I feel a strong sense of wondering and peace. It really has the ability to draw out very raw and personal emotions from deep within, allowing me to mull them over. Sound dramatic? Probably. But it is the best way to describe how I feel during this album. When I imagine a good aesthetic for this album, I picture a quiet night after a long, taxing day full of emotion. In a cabin by the woods during spring, with cold rain tapping gently on the window, a glass of wine in hand, a good book, and warm blankets to cuddle up in. Or possibly taking a walk in a mysterious enchanting forest. 

     

    A Brief Track by Track Review:


    Carousel
    A beautiful way to begin the album. This song is very light-hearted and hopeful about finding new love after it is lost. (7/10)

    I Don't Want to Be a Bride 
    A summery song about finding your true love, but not wanting to have to "wear white" to spend forever with them. The imagery used in this song is well crafted and is showcased by Vanessa's warm vocals. (8/10)

    London
    This is the song that truly began my love of Vanessa. Not only is this one of, if not the best songs on the album, but it also happens to be one of my favorite songs of all time. To me, the lyrics are extremely relatable and thought provoking. "I've never been so sure that after all these years I'll never learn that heavenly creatures never come," Vanessa sings as she pours her heart out into the mic. This song is about feeling fooled by a relationship, love, or crush. The narrator feels tired of waiting and searching for that special someone, lamenting that she is wasting away her time waiting for her "new age." (10/10)

    Fairweather Friend 
    A feathery song about an old lover/friend who only seems to think about fame or the luxuries of life. Vanessa knows that this person is only faking it through life without really ever facing reality. (6/10)

    Hear the Bells
    One of the more mysterious songs on the album, "Hear the Bells" is a song that wrestles with the vagueness of life and the difficulties of life. Rampant metaphors are seen through this song, as Vanessa moves through the different ways she searches for an answer. This track has a charm about it that is hard to explain, which may have something to do with its overall unexplained overall message. However, this could be a perfect metaphor for life itself: not sure how to figure it out, but it is fascinating to try. (8/10)

    Dear California
    This song is the closest this album gets to pop as a whole. Its deep lyrics are contrasted breezily with an upbeat and danceable rhythm. I can't help singing along to this song or tapping my foot when it comes on my shuffle. Great song to sing in the car! "But he loves me as I leave, so I've gotta go!" (9/10)

    Tall Tales for Spring 
    This. This is the song that is arguably the crowning jewel of the album. Deliciously mischievous with wicked lyrics and an involved instrumental, this song conjures the almost cynical side of the phenomena of love, life, spirituality, and "madness of the heart." Truthfully, I'm not sure exactly what this song is truly trying to tell the listener. However, this is what I believe makes it so intriguing. Production wise, this is the most intense song of the album, which comes as an insane jolt of energy compared to its rather calm and easy sister songs. If a listener was to pick only one song to listen to from this album, I'd highly suggest this one. This song and its counterpart In the End are magnificent and crown the album with grace and pride. (10/10)

    A few choice lyrics that happen to be some of my favorite:


    "The wicked in me is surely the wicked in you.
    We pray to a ghost that we've never met.
    Time turns for a cure from the scientists for
    Madness of the heart."

    "Hawking will tell us no tall tales this spring, 
    Our minds hold the ciaos that started everything."

     

    Get Good
    Taking it down a notch after the previous song, this piece reminds me of a rainy day in a cafe. The topic is recovery after a rough patch in life. Vanessa encourages a friend to take a minute, breathe, and take a moment "to get good again." (8/10)

    The Marching Line
    A lone piano starts off this track, capturing attention immediately. This song slowly swells like the slow anxiety of walking up to your destiny and future. While this is the track that is most somber, it is by no means a dud. Essentially, Vanessa reflects on how her future is calling and she must leave all of what she knows behind in order to fulfil her life. She will sail on a ship with no captain, off into the grey seas. "Fortune tellers, fortunes tell her..." (9/10)

    In the End
    Never fails to give me chills. This is the best way to end the album. I had mentioned previously that this was the counterpart to Tall Tales for Spring, this is because the instrumental is TTFS slowed down and given a more ambient sound. While the song itself is considerably short and only has a handful of lyrics, it is easily the most haunting and magical track on the album. In the End reflects on how death is inevitable and unavoidable, after all it's the way of all things. As I listen to this song, I imagine sinking deep into a black, peaceful ocean. And with this song the album comes to a close. (10/10)

    Highlights of the Album
    Tall Tales for Spring, London, In the End, The Marching Line, & Dear California 

    Overall Rating: 7.8/10 

    Thank you for reading my first blog post! Hopefully if this goes well I'll do more!

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    1.Misty Circles
    2.What I Want
    3.I'd Do Anything
    4.That's the Way (I Like It)
    5.You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)
    6.Lover Come Back to Me
    7.In Too Deep
    8.My Heart Goes Bang (Get Me to the Doctor)
    9.Brand New Lover
    10.Something in My House
    11.Hooked on Love
    12.I'll Save You All My Kisses
    13.Come Home with Me Baby
    14.Baby Don't Say Goodbye
    15.Your Sweetness (Is Your Weakness) (Japan Single)
    16.Gone 2 Long (Japan Single)
    17.Unhappy Birthday (Japan Single)
    18.Rebel Rebel (UK Single)
    19.You Spin Me Round (Like a Record) (Sugar Pumpers Radio Edit)
    20.Sex Drive
    21.Hit and Run Lover (Japan Single)
    22.You Spin Me Round (Like a Record) (Metro 7" Edit)
     
    Other Singles (Pre-Misty Circles & Debut album):
    1.I'm Falling
    2.Number Eleven
    3.It's Been Hours Now
    4.The Stranger

  7. part 1 

    part 2

     

    Someone wise once said "life without love is meaningless" perhaps I snapped when I said that. After breaking up with @Hylia in March, in the wee-hours of my anniversary celebrations, I discovered he had a ring for me, as a gift. I already married him once, gave him full custody of our three children, Tori, Mariah and Sylk Jr. and left his world for good, but going through the divorce, knowing what it meant to be away from him, knowing who I was without him... I knew I could not go back. I left with my fingers bare that night. Needless to say, Hylia and I have remained excellent friends since, our number one priority will always be our kids. But I still see that ring box sitting on the desk in his living room everytime I go to visit the kids. Does he still love me? I wonder.

    Despite the doubts, I was persistent to stay single there after, even though guys were coming left and right I decided that I needed some time off, ofcourse @Jae kept texting me, @Aidan.  kept leaving flowers at my door, and @Winnie. kept stalking me, but I was done with men. I was done with all of them. I even deleted the picture of @SWINΞ I had kept when I had grown quite the crush on him. It felt liberating. Something was different in me, I felt new, even my friends @Arya and @Mitski said so.

    It's a funny thing really, it's easy to be in your world, build it exactly to tend to your needs, easy to be alone but we have a biological desire to welcome another in this bubble that we've built. Nature's way to bend you. So it made complete sense when i met someone, it was the universe's way of telling me, the time was right. My October nights were suddenly filled with conversation about love and life, talk that went on till the sun came up, even though we both had work we didn't care. His words were so beautiful, the way he spoke, his thoughts, his mind, it amazed me. I had never felt such a fire before, except maybe with Hylia. But this was so much more.

    Still I was scared, I did not want to lose him. I guess after losing so many people in my life. I really wanted this to work. I have not told him yet, but I feel alot of love for him, yes I love him. And I wanna tell him, soon. But uncertainty still echoes at the far back of my mind, Does he still love me?

    To be continued.... 

  8. (l-r)

     

    OOM-9 > Captain Tarpals > Count Dooku > Rune Haako > Queen Amidala > Mace Windu

     

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    Hercules > Baron Mordo > Blackheart

     

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    Wiccan > Patriot > Iron Fist > Iron Man (Thorbuster)

     

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    Power Girl > The Question

     

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  9. Growing up, I always wanted to be a teacher. I played school instead of house, and I loved helping my friends with their homework so I could practice for the future. So many of my classmates hated being quizzed about life after high school, but it never bothered me because I had a plan. I'm very indecisive about many aspects of my life, but this is one area I never had to worry about until now.

     

    Last summer, I finally began my teaching classes after two years of general education and I was optimistic at first but have slowly realized that it isn't for me. The more I learn about it, I'm discovering that it isn't what I thought it would be at all and I want nothing to do with it anymore. It almost feels like a divorce in a way, because I've wanted to do this for so long and I've completely fallen out of love with it and don't see myself ever getting back to that honeymoon phase. I had this unrealistic image of teaching in my head where I would stroll into the classroom like Mary Poppins and have an intellectually-stimulating conversation with my students, and everything I've been learning lately completely goes against that. I've discovered that I hate being in front of a room, and I'm not equipped to deal with all of the issues that students, schools, and teachers face. It's 90% babysitting demon spawn and preparing for testing, which is completely different than I thought it would be and I don't have a passion for that. I also don't want to have a job that I have to keep thinking about after hours. I want to have time for myself and not be constantly stressed out.

     

    What once made me hopeful now makes me physically sick, and it's scary because this was my life plan and now I don't know where to go from here. However, in some ways it's liberating to admit that I'm over it because I'm finally allowed to imagine other possibilities. I'm not mentally, socially, or emotionally prepared for the job requirements of teaching, and it's not even something I'm willing to work on over time because I have zero interest in the profession anymore. Even if I had what it takes, I still wouldn't want to do it. It doesn't matter what school, age group, or subject, I just want to get out of the field entirely ASAP. It's actually astounding how quickly I went from being fully invested to trying to fake it to blatantly not caring in my classes. If I weren't locked into classes that I'm paying a fortune for, I would have ghosted months ago. Right now I'm just sticking it out until the semester is over.

     

    Ideally I would do something with writing because I'm good at it and I enjoy it, but I don't know if I could realistically provide for myself that way. I don't plan on building a family so I'll only need to worry about taking care of myself, but still. I haven't told many people about my change of heart because I know they're going to think I'm crazy if I drop education and go for English only, even though it would make me far happier than what I'm doing right now. I see the way people react every time my sister changes her major (she's on number 4) and it would be huge fodder for gossip especially since everyone who knows me knows that I've always wanted to be a teacher. I feel like people won't accept that I've changed my mind, and will try to convince me to keep doing something I don't care about anymore just because it fits the image of me they have in their heads. Everyone is going to be completely blindsided because I've never shared any of this out loud, and they're going to assume it's a rash impulse and not something I've thought about in depth. They're going to try to convince me I'm still in love with my spouse even though there's no feeling anymore and I'm ready to start seeing other people.

     

    I recently transferred to a private college after graduating from community college and I like it here but the main reason I chose it is because of its reputation among schools. When principals hire teachers, alumni from my current college go to the top of the pile. But if I don't want to teach anymore, it doesn't make sense for me to keep going here with how much it costs. I'll be sad to leave especially since I enjoy the campus culture and I've made a good amount of friends, but my heart says I should go. I can study English only at a public school for a fraction of the cost I'm paying right now for English and education at a private school. I just don't know how to bring it up with my family since preparing for the spring semester isn't very far away at all and I don't know if there's still time, and something tells me they're not going to respect my feelings. I think it's better for me to realize this now than to go through grad school and get locked into student teaching. I have an appointment to make my spring schedule at my current school literally any day now, and I have no idea what I'm going to tell them. "Hey, I'm dipping because I don't care about my major anymore and I can study something cheaper elsewhere" probably won't go over very well.

     

    I don't know why I decided to post this, especially since I barely come here anymore, but I guess I just wanted to hear people's opinions. If anyone has ever decided to change their major or career after thinking it's what they wanted to do all their life, I'd love to hear how it worked out for them or what they're doing now. I need as much insight as I can get. For those of you who have interacted with me, what career fields could you envision me in? Serious answers only, please.

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    Hey FOTPers jj2. In this thread I'm going to post about some of my favorite albums of all time where I like/love at least 80%+ of the album. brit13 First off I'm gonna start with my faves:

    • janet. by Janet Jackson: This album made me fall in love with 90s music and culture. For me, this album embodies the 90s music perfectly. There's pop, there's R&B, there's opera, there's new jack swing, there's ballads... It may be my favorite album from Janet tbh. I like every single song on this one but the exceptions are If, This Time, Throb, Any Time, Any Place and Where Are You Now. oprah2Those songs have left me bald ever since I first heard them. And the tour was snatching with the costumes being a highlight for me. Moving on...
    • Ray of Light by Madonna: When I first heard this album in 2012/13, I hated it with a passion and only liked Frozen and that was it. Then June 2015 happened when a voice told me to give it a second chance and I'm glad I did tbh. The lyrics, the melodies, her voice, the visuals... Pure p e r f e c t i o n.
    • The Fame Monster by Lady Gaga: Her best era in my opinion. Perfect tour, perfect videos, perfect album with no skippable tracks, something her other albums don't have, but Born This Way comes very close if it wasn't for FOHL and BJ+AF. jj3
    • Stripped by Christina Aguilera: I was hesitating between Bionic and this one but I went with Stripped only because Fighter, Walk Away, Dirrty and I'm OK are on it. rih14 I love me some shady, vulnerable and contoversial Xtina. All of those in one era. Whew she did THAT tbh. fall9 Also this album and the next one I consider them very personal;
    • PRISM by Katy Perry: This album has helped me so much for these past 2/3 years. By the Grace of God, Double Rainbow, Roar, Walking on Air, Unconditionally, Spiritual, Choose Your Battles and It Takes Two to be exact and I'll be forever grateful to Katy for releasing such a great body of work. It deserved to win at least 2 Grammys. rih14

    HONORABLE MENTIONS (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER):

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    Artist/s: Ben Howard

    Song: Oats in the Water

    Album: The Burgh Island - EP

    Genre: Indie folk

    Language: English

    Release Year: 2012

    Written By: Ben Howard

    Produced By: Chris Bond

    I stumbled across this song when watching The Innocents, that voice is incredible gaga13

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    My Anime List
    2018 Anime Watching Challenge.

    >>FOR ALL INFO, PLEASE VISIT HERE<<

     

    To be honest with you all, I kinda lost track of My Anime List, but luckily I'm trying to revive my profile there.
    Which means, I stumbled across this challenge and I was eager to participate. :D 
    I'll be updating my progress over here including reviews etc.

    Because I still qualify myself as a Newbie and didn't want to make the challenge too hard to begin with, as I could see myself being completely dissapointed for failing to accomplish the challenge, I chose the beginner's level. 

    Which means my sign up looks like this:

     

    🎧 Challenge Start Date: 09/07/2018
    🎤 Challenge Finish Date: 2018 
    🎖️ Link to your list: http://myanimelist.net/animelist/BibiTotoLover
    🎖️ Link to your Anime+: http://graph.anime.plus/BibiTotoLover/profile 
    🔗 Completed Anime (at sign-up): 15
    🔺 Difficulty: Knight

    🔻 Legend: Watching - Completed - Inactive/Plan to Watch 
     

    My challenge list:

    Tier 1: Casual (10 items)



    1.  
    2. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (08) Watch an anime which began airing between 2010 and 2014: <anime_title>
    3. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (09) Watch an anime that aired only during 2017: <anime_title>
    4. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (10) Watch an anime with 20 episodes or more: <anime_title>
    5. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (15) Watch a completed anime with a score of or below 6.00: <anime_title>
    6. [Started: Sep 8] [Finished: Sep 13] (16) Watch a completed anime with a score of or above 8.00: Sora yori mo Tooi Basho
    7. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (23) Watch a Gourmet or Magical Girl themed anime: <anime_title>
    8. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (25) Watch an anime tagged as Demons, Horror and/or Vampire: <anime_title>
    9. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (30) Watch an anime suggested by MAL or by Anime+ : <anime_title>
    10. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (31) Watch a Featured Anime: <anime_title>
    11. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (32) Watch an anime with an English main title: <anime_title>
       
      Tier 2: Seasoned (8 items)

       
    12. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (44) Watch an anime which began airing the same month you joined MAL: <anime_title>
    13. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (47) Watch an anime with 35 episodes or more: <anime_title>
    14. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (52) Watch a completed anime with less than 2,500 completed members: <anime_title>
    15. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (53) Watch a completed anime with more users in "Plan-to-Watch" than "Completed": <anime_title>
    16. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (65) Watch an anime tagged as Cars and/or Game: <anime_title>
    17. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (68) Watch an active staff member`s favorite anime: <anime_title>
    18. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (72) Watch an anime with a title that starts with the last letter of your username: <anime_title>
    19. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (73) Watch an anime with a title that ends with the first letter of your username: <anime_title>
       
      Tier 3: Advanced (2 items)

       
    20. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (92) Watch a completed anime with a score of or below 5.00: <anime_title>
    21. [Started: <date>] [Finished: <date>] (106) Watch the Top anime recommended to your Favorite Anime: <anime_title>

     

    Now, if you guys have any recommendations for any of the challenges, they are more than welcome and post them here, PLEASE! wub1 

    I'm looking forward to take on this challenge and maybe some of you will join too! 

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    What is your name?
    Faith

    --How old are you? 
    13

    --Orientation?
    Pansexual

    --Gender?

    Female

    --Are you dating anyone? 
    Single!

    ---Do you have a celebrity crush? 
    Yes, but they're taken

    --What country do you live in?
    The United States

    --Summer or Winter? 
    Summer

    --How many languages do you know? 
    One and a half

    --Have any tattoos? How many?
    None

    --Have any pets? How many? What are their names?

    I have two boy cats, their names are Gizmo and Furby

    --Ever been to another country? Do you want to?
    Nope. But I want to go to many places 

    --Favorite school subject?
    Consumer Science

    --Favorite beverage?
    H2O

    --Favorite food?
    Pizza

    --Do you prefer books, movies, or video games?
    Movies

    --Do you have any favorite books/movies/games?
    Friendle is my favorite book, First Period is my favorite movie, and Wii Sports is my favorite game

    --How many blogs do you follow?
    I don't follow any

    --How many followers do you have? 
    45

    --How many blogs do you have?
    One

    --Ever been in a physical fight?
    Yes, when I was in sixth grade a bully punched me multiple times and I punched him back

    --What do you want to do when you're older?
    Be a singer

    --Favorite fictional character?
    Jughead Jones

    --Have you ever broken a bone or had surgery?
    No, not yet

    --Favorite genre of music?
    Either Pop or R&B

    --Favorite song?

    We Belong Together by Mariah Carey

  13. I often think about random questions that I try to resolve but most of the time I end up on Wikipedia moo12 

    Todays’s question: 

     

    Is there a language(s) that are better suited for me out there than my mother tongue? (English)

     

    We are In no control in the beginning of our lives. We don’t get to choose where, when or pretty much if we decide to exist. We are also not in control the language we are born into. 

     

    When people immigrant to America and adapt American culture (or even do so in their homeland) they do so because of personal preference

    So my question is if there is another language out there that is better suited for me? Maybe my mind would prefer a language that has a different sentence structure. Maybe my body prefers the physical feeling that my mouth, vocal chords and lips feel in another language. Maybe my ears prefer the sounds of a language with a different use of vowels. moo12 

    I have wondered this for some time and have narrowed it down to either one of the Baltics ( Lithuanian or Latvian),  Basque, Berber, or Hebrew. moo12 

     

    But then another question arises, would I have preferred a language that is now dead or extinct, or the archaic version of a language ? moo12 

     

    let me stop before I get a headache moo12 

     

    do you think there is a better language out there for you? 

     

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    S W E E T E N E R

    Ariana Grande

    first day listen review

     

     

    1. Raindrops (An Angel Cried)

    It's kind of difficult to review this song. She sounds absolutely gorgeous, of course, but it's a very short track with very little to it. It's difficult for me to fully rate or score intros, outros, or interludes.

     

    2. Blazed (featuring Pharrell Williams)

    Pharrell is one of those producers that has a very distinct style. It is very evident in this song. Some people hate his productions, other love it – I'm somewhere in between. I think this song works. It reminds me a bit of his 'Happy', but with a subtle yet bubblier vibe to it. Ariana's vocalizations, layers, and harmonizations are really gorgeous. I enjoy this song a fair amount. I imagine I'll bop to it more as I listen to the album, but it didn't give me tingles or anything.

     

    3. The Light Is Coming (featuring Nicki Minaj)

    Nicki's involvement in this song is extremely unneeded. She fit so well into 'Side to Side' and even had multiple verses throughout the song. It was a true collaboration. In this song, however, Nicki raps an intro verse and you forget she was even apart of it at all once the song starts going in. This is a weird song. It's catchy but not really in the type of way you want to bop to it. The chorus has been described as annoying and tragic. I think that's a little harsh, but it can be a bit irritating. I think the beat is funky and the verses have a lot of flavor to it. Definitely one of my lesser liked tracks on the album, but it's not terrible, imo.

     

    4. R.E.M.

    I'm honestly not surprised that this is Ari's favorite song at the moment. I noticed that she used a sample from Imogen Heap in a later song in the album, and although it is not this one, I feel like 'R.E.M.' is like a marriage between Pharrell's funky R&B, repetitive productions and the electronic, dreamlike quality of Imogen's music. The song is smooth and sensual yet quick; Ari switches between spitting out lyrics and gorgeously arranged layered vocals. Although there are various hooks, the song itself is a little here and there, adding to the dream-like quality of it. I think it's brilliant and is my current favorite.

     

    5. God Is A Woman

    This is probably my favorite single released thus far. Ariana mixes a little bit of R&B/Hip-Hop in the verses with the pop, sonically sound vocals of the choruses. This is one of the few songs where she truly goes off on the vocal performance. I think 'God Is A Woman' was the perfect follow-up to 'No Tears Left To Cry'. It follows a modern pop sensibility but steps it up a notch. This entire album is a little more chill, but 'God is a Woman' has a lot of oomph to it. A bop, tbh, and in my top 5, probably. It's solid and I hope it gets rejuvenated on the charts.

     

    6. Sweetener

    Boy this chorus was disappointing. The song starts with a really vibrant and light-hearted beat. The verses are full of content and the pre-choruses are really sweet and I quite like the piano accompaniment during those moments. However, the chorus just threw me off and it's just... dumb. This might grow on me, and it has enough positive qualities for me to not skip it during my listen-throughs. But it's definitely low on the rating scale.

     

    7. Successful

    Again, the chorus had be going "huh?", but the instrumental to this song is so interesting, I vibed with it immediately. It's really hard for me for me to pinpoint what it exactly it reminds me of. It almost reminds me of like... 2000s video game music? I wish I could articulate it some more, but all I know is that I really love it. Ariana's vocals are really gorgeous, of course – particularly in the "it's a surprise / surprise" parts. Some of the vocal arrangements in some sections actually reminded me a bit of Destiny's Child or something? The lyrics of the chorus caught me off guard. Upon first listen they seem narcissistic and not related to the rest of the song, but I'll have to look at the lyrics and see if Ari explains this song at all. This is an odd song to describe and pin down, but I adore it a lot. I'll be bopping to it.

     

    8. Everytime

    (Now thanks to both Britney and Ariana I will continue to think that 'everytime' is one word...) I feel like this is a very standard, uptempo ballad-y type pop song you would expect on an Ariana record. However, I think it's a very good one. It kinda reminds me of 'Sometimes' from Dangerous Woman, not because they sound alike or about the same thing, but I think they serve kind of the same purpose. I actually found some relief when this song came on because it is very accessible. I think the lyrics are very intriguing and honest, though. "I get drunk pretend that I'm over it / self-destruct / show up like an idiot" was a line that grabbed me. It actually reminded me as the opposite scenario of 'New Rules' by Dua. I quite like this one a lot.

     

    9. Breathin

    The beginning jingle and jangles reminded me of Gold Panda immediately. I think it is no surprise (considering that the GP is already latching onto it) that it could be a contender for the next single. I think it's something of a No Tears Left to Cry 2.0. but with its own flavor, of course. It reminds me a lot of other types of pure pop songs released in the past couple years, but people are still here for. It's got that Ali Payami (Taylor's 'Style' and Ari's 'Love Me Harder') feeling to it. Something of a tropical flavor. Which is all good stuff. I love the sound. It's catchy and it bops. That being said, I love the actual message. Ariana explained it was about anxiety/anxiety attacks. ("People tell me to medicate") You can hear muffled voices/crowds during the verses and it has a tender side to it's message. Not only does the breathing calm her down, but it is her new lover: "but you tell me every time".

     

    10. No Tears Left To Cry

    This is a bop and a classic. Not much to say about it anymore since it's been out for months. I latched onto it quickly and listened to it over and over. That being said, I have a hard time connecting first singles to the album when it's finally released. It always feels... detached somehow. It still works in the vibe of the album, don't get me wrong, but it somehow still sounds... separate?

     

    11. Borderline (featuring Missy Elliot)

    We return to the Pharrell side of the album. This had a little more urban-electronic flavor to it. This is a pretty middle-of-the-road song for me, and it's probably one I will forget about when I'm not listening to the album on repeat anymore. However, I do enjoy it a bit. It's a smooth jam and it's fun to listen to. Not necessarily a "turn up" bop, but I think its placement in the album serves its purpose.

     

    12. Better Off

    I don't have much to say about this song in depth but I really, really like it. It's a really tender, bittersweet ballad that tells an emotional story. I wish it was a bit longer, especially the string accompaniment towards the end, but that's okay. A very solid song.

     

    13. Goodnight N Go

    Along with 'Breathin', I which this song's intro was incorporated into the song a bit more. The beginning of this song has a starlight, almost chiptune-esque twinkle to it before the "beat" drops. This is one of my favorite songs on the album, for sure. It feels very magical and intimate. I love how that the verses don't follow the same arrangement. The second verse is just... spectacular. The music falls away to make way for Ariana's vocals, which are soaring up in a vulnerable, sweet head voice. It fits so well with the lyrics, which are narrative in nature.

     

    14. Pete Davidson

    I actually like this song, but it's too bad it's too short. It has a nice flow to it, with a sweet nature to it. But it just kind of fades away fifty seconds into it when I just wanted it to go on. I don't think people can say this is song is bad (because of its namesake), but I would definitely say it's unfulfilling.

     

    15. Get Well Soon

    Wow! On my third listen of this song I realized that its style reminds me a lot of her debut album, actually. It has a lot to do with the tempo, beat, and piano. I will say that the entire album makes such stellar use of layering Ari's harmonizing vocals, but this track is a perfect example of how she and the producers do it. If you just stop and pay attention you'll notice that her vocals are everywhere on this song. It's songs like this that makes me feel like Ariana is really finding her footing as who she is as an artist. I don't know who is making a song that sounds like this right now. It is a stellar closer and one of my favorites as well. (although idk why there's a minute of silence at the end of the track)

     

    Favorite Tracks:

    (not including the two official singles)

     

    - R.E.M.
    - Goodnight N Go
    - Breathin
    - Get Well Soon
    - Successful

     

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