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My thoughts on this people.


Fuck the KKK, Neo-nazi and uneducated white trash

Black lives matters, Jews lives matters

Fuck you Trump, we know your dad was in the KKK

God loves all his children, you have no power dumbass white men

I hope, a black men beat your ass real good for the shit you say and do

A brother is a brother, black or white and that's how it is

Your brain and mind is fucked up by hate, since you can't see a black man with ya jab (Haha! whatcha gonna do now. Nothing! That's right...)

Your dick was so small, your wife left you for a black man. When you couldn't get it up. xD

This Is Me

How i am offline:

Really quiet

Kinda shy



Does things/says for shock value

Attention whore



Sacrifice things to make someone else happy

I always say "Sorry" if i am wrong about something 

I have a older brother & sister

I have two nephews, who love me

Soul searching

Unsure about things 

Uneasy about things 

I have a big heart

My singing (Videos, MP3, m4a) is me expressing yourself


I have ADHD, OCD, Depression & Anxiety


I don't tell most people this one, but grandfather put his cold hands down my pants in front of my underwear. When i was 4 or 5 years old. (He told my grandmother, i liked it many years later. vomit1 )

I have a lot of fears and i'm scared of them


(There more....!)

You were right about the singing thing (I just wasn't feeling it anymore), my dad ran off and was smoking crack and other drugs. While my mom was pregnant with me in 1986, my mom became so depressed at that time. While she was pregnant with me, i didn't see my dad till i was 4 years old and had no fucking clue who the fuck he was and i wouldn't get outta the car till my mom took me outta the car and said this is your dad. I got ADHD at 4 years old and OCD at 12 years old, Depression came at 13 years old and Anxiety at 17 years old, i was bullied in school and called names like "Faggot", "Weirdo" and ext. I was picked on by family and people in school growing up, my grandfather passed away in March of a heart attack at the age 83 and he had depression for years. My grandmother got dementia in 2014 and i fell into depression because of it. My dad can be really hard on me for no reason what so ever at times, my mom had a new man in the house every 3 or 4 years and that took a toll on me growing up. I went from school to school, i went to 5 high school. My mom and cousin joked i shouldn't have happened/been born, my mom would get mad at me, when i wouldn't read a book at 4 or 5 years old and she'd say "You have a head like your father" in front of family and friends. My mom had a hard time with me growing up. since i had ADHD and was a really sensitive kid. I was told to lie to my other grandmother, because my mom told me to lie and not tell the truth. That hurt me inside for years after.

I have no clue, what this one is. Haha!



I am really like this at times. xD


Unsure, what this is.



Talking about sadness & life:



Words in German with Driven:



Dragging singers, Singing, It's all for a joke:



Body Switch/Let's Get Physical:




I'll be updating this once in a while. :)


Since March, i've been crying some days and depressed at times. I've tried to stay strong and do what my heart wants. Losing my grandfather in March didn't hit me hard yet, i'm moving forward as planned. My digital camera lens is broken, i'm not worried about that in the least. My voice is here to stay and so am i, yesterday i wasn't scared to go downstairs for the first time without a flashlight. I am a caring and nice person, i'm kinda shy with new people till i get to know them a lil bit.

The Cure


1.Diamond Heart


3.The Cure

4.John Wayne

5.Dancin' In Circles

6.Perfect Illusion

7.Million Reasons

8.I Want Your Love

9.Come To Mama

10.Angel Down

11.Til It Happens To You

12.Grigio Girls

13. Just Another Day

14.La Vie en Rose (Outtake from CTC)

My rework of Joanne, it's called "The Cure" now.


Don't Knock Twice
Arbor Demon
The Lake on Clinton Road
The Remains
The Witching
The Harvesting
The Haunted World of El Superbeasto
Pokémon the Movie: Volcanion and the Mechanical Marvel
Trick 'r Treat
The Stare (Japanese)
The Crooked Man
Devil in the Dark
TMNT Half-Shell Heroes: Blast to the Past (Kid movie, xD)
Ju-on: The Grudge (Japanese)
Johnny Frank Garrett's Last Word
The Axe Murders of Villisca
The Other Side of the Door
Sadako vs. Kayako (Japanese)
The Autopsy of Jane Doe
Return to House on Haunted Hill
Tales of Halloween 
The Witch
The Boy
Night Of The Creeps
From a House on Willow Street
Sometimes They Come Back
Sometimes They Come Back... Again
Sometimes They Come Back... for More
Dead Mine
The Binding
The Corridor
Into The Storm
Carved: The Slit-mouthed Woman
Alien: Covenant
The Boss Baby
Get Out
7 Witches
Killing Ground
The Hills Have Eyes (1977)
The Hills Have Eyes Part II (1985)
Mind Ripper
The Hills Have Eyes 2 (2007)
Howling IV: The Original Nightmare (1988)
A Dog's Purpose
The Mummy (2017)
You Are Umasou
Behind the Wall
Leatherface (2017)
Cult of Chucky (2017)
Johnny in the Attic (2015)
Cult (Japanese)
Clown (2014)
Goodnight Mommy (2014)
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2




My Story

One time in my life, i was really bitter about everything and at people.

I grew up being a jolly and happy child.

I was drag from school to school almost every 3 or 4 years.

My mom had a new man in the house every 3 or 4 years.

I wanted to runaway from home at 4 years old, i never did it.

I had 3 cat scan, growing up as a kid. (They find nothing wrong)

I didn't see my dad till i was 4 years old.

My mom was really hard on me, growing up. (Yelling "Fine then" and "You have a head like ur dad" also ext)

I got ADHD at 4 years old

I got Depression at 13 years old

I got OCD at 15 years old

I got Anxiety at 17 years old

My mom picked a man over my brother and sister (She did the same with me)

I left home at 15 years old (See above for the reason^)

I dropped outta high school 3 times.

I almost went to boot camp at 15 years old (Because of my mom then BF)

My dad was smoking crack, when he got my mom pregnant with me.

I hated men and women for a very long time, because of how my family was to me growing up.

I have a rage deep inside of me, i hold it back for most part (Now a days).


There more, i can't remember right now.


Freedom of love let me love 
who i wanna love and have a 
fun time since life is too 
short to stay in one place
for very long i wanna spread
myself around and swing a
litte bit while at it


This is the awakening of me 
let my soul shine bright once 
again i wanna be in my god mode 
like i was before


This is the falling of me
i'm falling like the fallen 
angel from the heavens above
down to earth

3 classic lyrics from me.

Adam Lambert

Adore Delano

Alexandra Burke

Alexandra Stan

Anna Tsuchiya

Ayumi Hamasaki

Billie Piper


Bonnie McKee


Britney Spears

Christina Aguilera

Crystal Kay

Dead Or Alive


Fefe Dobson


GACKT (Just the Last Moon album)

In This Moment

Ivy Levan

Jessica Sutta

Kelly Clarkson

Koda Kumi

Kylie Minogue

Lacey Sturm

Lady Gaga

Lana Del Rey

Lina Morgana

Marina and the Diamonds


Namie Amuro

Nick Jonas


Nightmares In Wax (Dead or Alive's name before 1981)

Pete Burns (of Dead Or Alive)

Porcelain Black

Rob Zombie

Shania Twain

Victoria Beckham

Ariana Grande

Ashlee Simpson

Ashley Ballard

Ashley Roberts


Brooke Candy


Cyndi Lauper

Ellie Goulding

Emma Bunton

Geri Halliwell

Jo O'Meara

Julia Volkova

Kat DeLuna

Keshia Chanté

Lena Katina


Mel B


Paula Abdul

Sara Lumholdt (From A*Teens)


Selena Gomez

Spice Girls



Vanessa Hudgens

Victoria Duffield

Victoria Hamilton

Vitamin C

Willa Ford

Zedd & Kesha

A*Teens (The singles)

S Club 7 (The singles)

Alaska Thunderfuck

Andy Black

Black Veil Brides

Blake McGrath

Giorgio Moroder (Just the Déjà Vu album)

Jaremi Carey

Jeffree Star

Jo Kwon

Marilyn (Yes, this is the 80's singer)

Marilyn Manson

Michael Jackson

Mike Munich

Miss Fame



I need you to pray

My grandmother had a stroke today and has blood on the brain, they coulda removed the blood from her brain but there is 75% she'd died from it. I need you to pray for her to get better.

My Words

This album goes out to everyone, who was put down or bullied in their life time.
Be yourself and always still true to yourself no matter what comes you're way in life.
That's the key to being happy and getting over your past events well being a stronger person.


An tribute


A Medley (An tribute to Pete Burns):

You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)

Something in My House
Hit & Run Lover

Never Marry An Icon


-Coming sometime in November`-



Demi: The Singles


1.This Is Me (with Joe Jonas)
2.Get Back
3.La La Land
4.Don't Forget
5.Here We Go Again
6.Remember December
7.Wouldn't Change a Thing (Ft. Joe Jonas or Stanfour)
9.Give Your Heart a Break
10.Heart Attack
11.Made in the USA
12.Let It Go
13.Neon Lights
14.Really Don't Care (Ft. Cher Lloyd)
15.Cool for the Summer
17.Stone Cold
18.Body Say
Deluxe edition:
1.We'll Be a Dream (We the Kings Ft. Demi Lovato)
2.Somebody to You (The Vamps Ft. Demi Lovato)
3.Up (Olly Murs Ft. Demi Lovato)
4.Irresistible (Remix) (Fall Out Boy Ft. Demi Lovato)
5.Without a Fight (Brad Paisley Ft. Demi Lovato)

Since, she said "No new album till 2018". I made a list of her singles and featuring singles.


Cuba: Jan 9th till Jan, 23th 2016

Atlantic City, Philadelphia, New York: April 3rd till April 7th 2016

Cuba: May, 21st till May, 28th 2016

Cuba: Oct, 22nd till Oct, 29th 2016

Cuba: Nov, 12st till Nov, 19th 2016


(I'll be updating this, once in a while)


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