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White supremacists

My thoughts on this people.


Fuck the KKK, Neo-nazi and uneducated white trash

Black lives matters, Jews lives matters

Fuck you Trump, we know your dad was in the KKK

God loves all his children, you have no power dumbass white men

I hope, a black men beat your ass real good for the shit you say and do

A brother is a brother, black or white and that's how it is

Your brain and mind is fucked up by hate, since you can't see a black man with ya jab (Haha! whatcha gonna do now. Nothing! That's right...)

Your dick was so small, your wife left you for a black man. When you couldn't get it up. xD

You were right about the singing thing (I just wasn't feeling it anymore), my dad ran off and was smoking crack and other drugs. While my mom was pregnant with me in 1986, my mom became so depressed at that time. While she was pregnant with me, i didn't see my dad till i was 4 years old and had no fucking clue who the fuck he was and i wouldn't get outta the car till my mom took me outta the car and said this is your dad. I got ADHD at 4 years old and OCD at 12 years old, Depression came at 13 years old and Anxiety at 17 years old, i was bullied in school and called names like "Faggot", "Weirdo" and ext. I was picked on by family and people in school growing up, my grandfather passed away in March of a heart attack at the age 83 and he had depression for years. My grandmother got dementia in 2014 and i fell into depression because of it. My dad can be really hard on me for no reason what so ever at times, my mom had a new man in the house every 3 or 4 years and that took a toll on me growing up. I went from school to school, i went to 5 high school. My mom and cousin joked i shouldn't have happened/been born, my mom would get mad at me, when i wouldn't read a book at 4 or 5 years old and she'd say "You have a head like your father" in front of family and friends. My mom had a hard time with me growing up. since i had ADHD and was a really sensitive kid. I was told to lie to my other grandmother, because my mom told me to lie and not tell the truth. That hurt me inside for years after.

My Vocaroo's

I have no clue, what this one is. Haha!



I am really like this at times. xD


Unsure, what this is.



Talking about sadness & life:



Words in German with Driven:



Dragging singers, Singing, It's all for a joke:



Body Switch/Let's Get Physical:




I'll be updating this once in a while. :)


Since March, i've been crying some days and depressed at times. I've tried to stay strong and do what my heart wants. Losing my grandfather in March didn't hit me hard yet, i'm moving forward as planned. My digital camera lens is broken, i'm not worried about that in the least. My voice is here to stay and so am i, yesterday i wasn't scared to go downstairs for the first time without a flashlight. I am a caring and nice person, i'm kinda shy with new people till i get to know them a lil bit.

The Cure


1.Diamond Heart


3.The Cure

4.John Wayne

5.Dancin' In Circles

6.Perfect Illusion

7.Million Reasons

8.I Want Your Love

9.Come To Mama

10.Angel Down

11.Til It Happens To You

12.Grigio Girls

13. Just Another Day

14.La Vie en Rose (Outtake from CTC)

My rework of Joanne, it's called "The Cure" now.

Movies (I've seen)


Don't Knock Twice
Arbor Demon
The Lake on Clinton Road
The Remains
The Witching
The Harvesting
The Haunted World of El Superbeasto
Pokémon the Movie: Volcanion and the Mechanical Marvel
Trick 'r Treat
The Stare (Japanese)
The Crooked Man
Devil in the Dark
TMNT Half-Shell Heroes: Blast to the Past (Kid movie, xD)
Ju-on: The Grudge (Japanese)
Johnny Frank Garrett's Last Word
The Axe Murders of Villisca
The Other Side of the Door
Sadako vs. Kayako (Japanese)
The Autopsy of Jane Doe
Return to House on Haunted Hill
Tales of Halloween 
The Witch
The Boy
Night Of The Creeps
From a House on Willow Street
Sometimes They Come Back
Sometimes They Come Back... Again
Sometimes They Come Back... for More
Dead Mine
The Binding
The Corridor
Into The Storm
Carved: The Slit-mouthed Woman
Alien: Covenant
The Boss Baby
Get Out
7 Witches
Killing Ground
The Hills Have Eyes (1977)
The Hills Have Eyes Part II (1985)
Mind Ripper
The Hills Have Eyes 2 (2007)
Howling IV: The Original Nightmare (1988)
A Dog's Purpose
The Mummy (2017)
You Are Umasou
Behind the Wall
Leatherface (2017)
Cult of Chucky (2017)
Johnny in the Attic (2015)
Cult (Japanese)
Clown (2014)
Goodnight Mommy (2014)
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2


Pitch Perfect 3
Extinction (2015)
Sweet, Sweet Lonely Girl (2016)
Temple (2017)
Mask Maker (2010)
It (2017)
Nails (2017)
Jeepers Creepers 3
Day of the Dead: Bloodline
The Visit
The People Under the Stairs
Night of the Demons (1988)
Night of the Demons 2

Night of the Demons 3
The Stepfather (1987)
The Stepfather 2 (1989)
The Stepfather 3 (1992)
The Stepfather (2009)
The Unborn (2009)
Don't Breathe
House on Elm Lake
The Shape of Water
Fullmetal Alchemist
Tokyo Ghoul
The Descent 2

Classics From The Past


Freedom of love let me love 
who i wanna love and have a 
fun time since life is too 
short to stay in one place
for very long i wanna spread
myself around and swing a
litte bit while at it


This is the awakening of me 
let my soul shine bright once 
again i wanna be in my god mode 
like i was before


This is the falling of me
i'm falling like the fallen 
angel from the heavens above
down to earth

3 classic lyrics from me.

I need you to pray

My grandmother had a stroke today and has blood on the brain, they coulda removed the blood from her brain but there is 75% she'd died from it. I need you to pray for her to get better.

My Words

This album goes out to everyone, who was put down or bullied in their life time.
Be yourself and always still true to yourself no matter what comes you're way in life.
That's the key to being happy and getting over your past events well being a stronger person.


Demi: The Singles


1.This Is Me (with Joe Jonas)
2.Get Back
3.La La Land
4.Don't Forget
5.Here We Go Again
6.Remember December
7.Wouldn't Change a Thing (Ft. Joe Jonas or Stanfour)
9.Give Your Heart a Break
10.Heart Attack
11.Made in the USA
12.Let It Go
13.Neon Lights
14.Really Don't Care (Ft. Cher Lloyd)
15.Cool for the Summer
17.Stone Cold
18.Body Say
Deluxe edition:
1.We'll Be a Dream (We the Kings Ft. Demi Lovato)
2.Somebody to You (The Vamps Ft. Demi Lovato)
3.Up (Olly Murs Ft. Demi Lovato)
4.Irresistible (Remix) (Fall Out Boy Ft. Demi Lovato)
5.Without a Fight (Brad Paisley Ft. Demi Lovato)

Since, she said "No new album till 2018". I made a list of her singles and featuring singles.


Cuba: Jan 9th till Jan, 23th 2016

Atlantic City, Philadelphia, New York: April 3rd till April 7th 2016

Cuba: May, 21st till May, 28th 2016

Cuba: Oct, 22nd till Oct, 29th 2016

Cuba: Nov, 12st till Nov, 19th 2016


(I'll be updating this, once in a while)


My Farewell

I just wanna say thank you for talking to me at some point in time, i really liked that you listen to what i was going through in my life at that time. 
You've all left your mark on me and help me deal with some of it, i couldn't have done it without you guys letting me let it out in PMs.
You'll always be in my thoughts and memories for a very long time, i've had some good times with all of you on here. The laughs were the 
best part of it, i'll take this time to say goodbye now. cry8 

Get Nasty & Sexual. :P

Lollipop (Aka Josh) 

Did some sexual curious things (When i was 12 till 16)
Saw 7 or 8 shadow figures (When i was 12)

Saw two full body apparition (When i was 13)
Heard voices in my head (When i was a young/mid teen) <-(I don't hear them anymore)
I couldnt sleep at night without taking a pill (When i was 13)
I started to sing (When i was 13)
I left home (When i was 15)
Drop outta high school the first time (When i was 15)
Open up about my past (When i was 24)
Got ADHD (When i was 4)
Got OCD (When i was 12)
Got Anxiety (When i was 17)
Got Depression (When i was 13)
Drop outta high school the 2nd time (When i was 17)

Drop outta high school the final time (When i was 19)


I'm just human like everyone else in this world.

Music Business

After all this Kesha stuff, I think no one should try to get into the music business.

I've kinda given up on making my videos, but still come up with ideas for songs.

Reinventing yourself can only be done, so many times before you fail. (Haha, Madonna shade)  eve1 

Leave the sadness to shine

If, i seem off sometimes. It's because i've had a breakdown two weeks ago, well i was visiting my oma in the hospital. I hugged her then breakdown into tears after, i also took her hand and started to rub it. Were just waiting for her to get into a home now.

I'll fight the sadness and depression, since i wanna shine at my best. ;)

About me

My name: Josh

Known for being: playful, cheeky, caring and loving 

Status: I'm single

Things i love: Music, Singing, Horror movies, Porn

In my past life: I was a woman (with green eyes and black hair)

Music genres: Pop, Pop rock, Country pop and others

Outta My Own Words


I'm not gonna say the words you told 
me to say i'm gonna say them outta my 
own words from now on from my heart 
and with all honesty 

I ain't your puppet don't try to put 
your words into my mouth ever again 
i say what i want and when i want too

Your to blind to understand that anyways
you've always wanted it your way 
and only your way so i am here to 
shut you down for damn good

You always told me to lie about
things when i wanted to say the
truth and let people know what 
was really going on with everything
all along through the years

It's gonna be outta truth of words
since they will always win over 
so many lies coming outta your 
mouth over the years your only 
making yourself look like a fool 

A song, i did in mid 2014/early 2015. It's about a son facing up to his mother.

This year

I left social media for good this month, screw fb and all that shit. 2014 & 2015 were really depressing for me, seeing someone i love deal with dementia and me feeling lost about it a lot.

In 2016, i wanna travel and start writing something. 




I wish, Sony and Dr.Luke would stop their shit and let her go already. They are ruining her music career by playing this freaking games.

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