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This was the first time I told someone, face-to-face. The person I told to always supported the LGBTQ community so I knew their reaction would be positive, but Idk why for some reason I was so scared. It felt like my heart would explode. Thankfully, the reaction was positive. My heart is honestly so full of love rn. But I'm still scared, I'll have to come out to basically everyone I meet in my life, only if they have a terrible gaydar ofco cause you can spot the fag in me from miles away lol. 

Honestly can we all just end coming out? I was ghay the second I came out of my mother's womb, maybe even before that, a tiny gay zygote.  Jokes aside, I want to be a parent someday and it would honestly KILL me to know that my child is hurting so much to be who they are, or anyone close to me for that matter. 

Thank you to everyone who supported me and gave me the courage to do this. <3

Let's celebrate with this ethereal bop by the queen Riana Rodriguez!

 

I was deleting some files and I came across my Minecraft data so I thought before I'd delete I'd take some snaps for memories!! 

Enjoy!!!

 

me dog name after @Hylia drowning in me beetroot paddy

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me dog Hylia's kid Sylk Jr 

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Looking over me farm!!!!
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Looking over me cottage me built 

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me land conquer me make map!!!!

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me built wizard tower on mountain 

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me build portal thingy give me powers

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me love gardening

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me pig pen and chicken coop me love bacon and kfc nom nom

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me sheep pen and cow pen me love wool and milk

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me horsey and donkeys 

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me make bunny farm

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me pussies

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me kitchen

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me bed where me magic happen

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me keep secret in the woods

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me put zombie spawner me trap them and harvest points like me harvest rep in rep lounge

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me do witchcraft 

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me make portal go to other dimension to escape @Taylor

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me look over me farm and do evil laugh

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me name me dog after Wendy Williams!
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me bodyguard

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me name dog after legend

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me cat wig

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me cat name after @Aidan.

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That's all :) 

03 - A Moment.

Hello everyone sorry for this bleak moment but I feel a bit upset cause I fear that all the progress that the LGBTQ community has made in the past several years will be wiped out by who's in the oval office right now. I live in a country where LGBTQ is not recognized whatsoever but seeing that happen elsewhere, seeing progress, gives me and everyone else like me hope and that is the greatest gift of all. I truly hope and pray that people fight, raise their voices and protect our community and continue striving for equality everywhere. 

The women's march is such a beautiful example. Ultimately it's all of us that have the power, but it's only when we're all together. 

 

02 - khkujkjh

this is probably the 100th time I've written a lengthy, emotional post on some part or another from my life, and then erased it completely... 

I don't know why I'm like this, but I'll just leave this here for now. 

 

I measure every grief I meet with narrow, probing eyes -- I wonder if it weighs like mine -- or has an easier size - Emily Dickinson

01 - Limitless

Today, I did something that I've been wanting to do for a long long time. I deleted my social media accounts. All of them. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Askfm, Snapchat, Whatsapp you name it. The reason is, I was holding on too much to my past. I finished High School almost a year ago, and since then my online social life hadn't been active that much, but still I held on to everything so dearly, every post that I made, ever status that I posted, every picture I uploaded, all those likes and comments. Even though nobody really cared. I did. Cause I felt that's all I had. And then I realized how pathetic I was...to obsess over that pic I uploaded 2 years ago that got 200 likes.. I felt really held back. Like a hoarder from one of those TLC shows. I asked my friends, almost all of them said "Oh noo they're memories..". But they weren't. They just reminded me of my troubled past. They reminded me of my back-stabbing ex "best friends", who I surprisingly was still friends with on Facebook. But most important they reminded me of who I was back then. This messed up teenage boy caught in everybody's drama, trying to be funny to get attention, yea I was basically a slut, I loveeedd attention and I would've done anything to get it back then. Not for the wrong reasons ofcourse, obviously this stems from deep rooted issues which would take years to discuss. But I'm working on it. I'm getting to know myself better as each day passes. And I can't continue if I have reminders around of the person I was. I wanna be limitless. I don't want anything holding me back from doing anything or being anything I want. I wanna live a life where the only thing that I hold dear is my happiness, and not at the expense of others.

About a week ago I read something that struck me "Poor is the man whose pleasure depend on the permission of another." - Madonna  Its basically everything I've ever wanted to know. 

 

Thanks for reading.