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01 - Limitless


Sylk

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Today, I did something that I've been wanting to do for a long long time. I deleted my social media accounts. All of them. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Askfm, Snapchat, Whatsapp you name it. The reason is, I was holding on too much to my past. I finished High School almost a year ago, and since then my online social life hadn't been active that much, but still I held on to everything so dearly, every post that I made, ever status that I posted, every picture I uploaded, all those likes and comments. Even though nobody really cared. I did. Cause I felt that's all I had. And then I realized how pathetic I was...to obsess over that pic I uploaded 2 years ago that got 200 likes.. I felt really held back. Like a hoarder from one of those TLC shows. I asked my friends, almost all of them said "Oh noo they're memories..". But they weren't. They just reminded me of my troubled past. They reminded me of my back-stabbing ex "best friends", who I surprisingly was still friends with on Facebook. But most important they reminded me of who I was back then. This messed up teenage boy caught in everybody's drama, trying to be funny to get attention, yea I was basically a slut, I loveeedd attention and I would've done anything to get it back then. Not for the wrong reasons ofcourse, obviously this stems from deep rooted issues which would take years to discuss. But I'm working on it. I'm getting to know myself better as each day passes. And I can't continue if I have reminders around of the person I was. I wanna be limitless. I don't want anything holding me back from doing anything or being anything I want. I wanna live a life where the only thing that I hold dear is my happiness, and not at the expense of others.

About a week ago I read something that struck me "Poor is the man whose pleasure depend on the permission of another." - Madonna  Its basically everything I've ever wanted to know. 

 

Thanks for reading.  

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I'm happy you took the step oprah9

 

May the best come to you hug1 

 

 

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PS once I scribbled that into a paper but didn't name Madonna mad5 

 

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11 hours ago, Blue Riding Hood said:

I'm happy you took the step oprah9

 

May the best come to you hug1 

 

 

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PS once I scribbled that into a paper but didn't name Madonna mad5 

 

Thank you so much hug1

 

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I thought Madge fans would come after me so I put the name eve1 

love the quote though rav2 

 

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Just now, Sylkmonster said:

Thank you so much hug1

 

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I thought Madge fans would come after me so I put the name eve1 

love the quote though rav2 

 

copyright creep1 

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7 minutes ago, Blue Riding Hood said:

copyright creep1 

what do you think sis should I rename my blog to "Memoirs of an Imperfect Sylkmonster" or is it too much? moo1 

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1 minute ago, Sylkmonster said:

what do you think sis should I rename my blog to "Memoirs of an Imperfect Sylkmonster" or is it too much? moo1 

it's your fave album after all moo1 

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55 minutes ago, Dr. Slay said:

Came to look at this after that one PM creep1

Glad you did this tho cry1

Looking forward to the next entry cry2

OMG I SHOULDVE DELETED THIS nicki4

Thanks tho xtina6

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I did the same back when i was 16 i only have snapchat and whatsapp now for kis and cackles but rn to me I dont wanna be a part of it for other reasons 

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7 hours ago, Mint said:

I did the same back when i was 16 i only have snapchat and whatsapp now for kis and cackles but rn to me I dont wanna be a part of it for other reasons 

its just so much better, when you move on, right?

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I learned that it really helped improve my social life as a whole; yeah I still have snapchat these days but I deleted everything else and now I'm much more sociable irl jj2 

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9 minutes ago, Sylk said:

its just so much better, when you move on, right?

I mean its not that i regret anything that was on social media, I just think it really negatively affects the standards of communication even irl. The way people are communicating these days is just so sad to me, even when they actually do and it's sometimes about a non event like when they discuss these memes or "viral" moments that just sound BEYOND stupid to me because its like a culture and if you dont follow everything thats going on and every lame joke or meme youre automatically disconnected from that culture, it's kind of lame how things have become lame with the development of technology. And I know its kind of  hypocritical of me to be on pop forums knowing some of the social media nonsense will be automatically discussed here, but I'm honestly just here to talk with a select few, troll around catch up on some music. I just use whatsapp so i can set up a meet or for quick stuff I genuinely HATE texting and snapchat just to send embarassing shitfaced crap to my baes. I actually have friends who arent on many social media platforms too but for different reasons. I know I sound highkey pretentious but its one of the things that really turn me off atm, life just seems less exciting than the way it did 20 years ago.

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I know I'm reading this way too late, I was actually checking if Dances with Pooh Volume 2 was out rip4. And before I write my reply, just note that I already have my own issues with similar things and sometimes I should take my own advice, but each situation is different

 

In response to this old blog, and yes I know your back on twitter now cos u mention twitter often, I can see why u say those things but at the same time it shouldn't be that deep. I mean I don't know the details of course, but if those ex-friends are indeed bad people that hurt you.... you should've removed them a long time ago from your social media. That would've been a better response to them rather then deleting all the accounts. But I also understand when u say "I don't want to hold on to old things, cos the memories make me feel sad/bad". A memory could be good or bad, it could be of yourself or your family when you were at a happier time, it could be a memory of the life and happy times spent with a deceased loved one, or it could be the memory of the day of tragedy and chaos or death. They are all memories, we give them power. You control what effect a memory has on you.

 

The pics that were on twitter weren't bad memories themselves, they just reminded u of other bad memories so u basically deleted them because they're guilty by association. You can control what each memory does to u when u redefine a memory from "Oh this is the pic that I took during the time everyone was lying behind my back, I was dumb, I was weak, I'm better now, that pic represents my old weak self" to "That's a pic I took on a happy day, there were no problems and the pic looked great, it's among my best pics".

 

Like I said before I also struggle with the whole nostalgia/memories and the positive/negative aspects of it. 

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