You never really think you might lose someone when you're still so young. When I graduated high school in 2014, I didn't talk with my friends much because I wanted a new start. Just a couple of months ago, my mom snowed me a name on her computer screen and asked if I knew her because it listed her as going to my high school and being in my graduating class. I said yes, and my mom told me that the girl had passed away a month ago, and that she was reading her obituary. The girl had been one of my best friends in high school. I thought I had processed things and went through the motions of coming to terms with it, but recently I've been having multiple dreams where she's still alive and I'll talk to her like it's just an ordinary thing and nothing has happened. The more I have these dreams, the more regret I feel about my not keeping connections with my high school friends. I guess I'm still processing things in my head. I saw her back in January at the mall and said hi to her, but she barely spoke to me and walked off. When I found out that she had passed away, I found out it was due to a brain tumor, and in the process of getting rid of it last year she had a stroke and lost her motor skills and had to relearn everything. When she barely spoke to me at the mall, my first thought was that she was being obnoxious, I never thought that she might have forgotten who I was or that she had been through so much. You can't take back the bad thoughts you once had about someone's actions, no matter how much you want to. I have a lot of regret surrounding this, but I want to remember her for who she was and how good of a friend she always was to me.
Always tell the people close to you how much they mean to you, and don't let go of them before they're took from your life permanently,