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This isn't a cry for help...but something that I want to connect with you guys

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Have you ever felt like something's wrong with you? As if you're not good enough? Do you ever think that other people are better than you because there are things that they can do that you can't? I feel like that everyday. I feel that I don't really have the same mind set as anyone else, like I can't do anything right. I'm not smart, I probably don't know how to solve problems by myself. It's like I'm unable to do anything. But I'm not in a wheel chair so I can walk, I have hands and arms to reach and grab things. But that's not the issue, the issue is my mentality. I wish I was like other people who knows how to work hard and think straight. I don't know why God even punished me like this I don't like the way I am, I never asked to be born, why do I feel like I don't belong or that I'm a waste of space? Sometimes I'll have nights where I cry, feeling sorry for myself and that I'm not good enough for anyone or that I'm too much. I don't know why I have people who care about me (friends, family etc) when all I do is cause trouble or push them away. I was trying to escape from home, not caring if I die in the streets because all I wanted to do was not exist anymore. I would always have thoughts of self-harming because all I wanted to do was feel pain, and the more I cause harm to myself maybe eventually I'll lay on the floor not being able to feel pain anymore. I don't want anyone to feel bad for me because I'm no one to have a pity party. To be honest, I'm not super open about how I feel so telling you guys these things really help me. Thank you for reading I know I don't come often because of so many things I'm dealing with but as always stay in tune with my blogs you guys know I enjoy you reading them and giving them likes. You guys are my little pumpkin patch and i love you! 



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A lot of people have thoughts like these from time to time, more than you’d think. I’m glad you wrote this out, because writing is a good stress reliever and a good way to vent bottled up feelings.  

You don’t never have to base who you are on other people’s feelings. Or base your worth on what other people think of you. Everyone is different, and everyone one has different levels of intellect. Think of the smartest person you know, there is always someone smarter then them. Everyone thinks different, to you it may seem everyone is alike, and you are different, and you are, but so is everyone else.

And if you’re having thoughts of self harm you should talk to a close friend or parent maybe, or call some numbers for people that can help you with thoughts like this. Because while thoughts like these are “normal”, they’re not good for you.

Much Love, Winnie The Pooh ❤️❤️❤️

 

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I have similar thoughts. I came extremely close to ending my life about 3 years ago because of them, but I know how much it would hurt my family, so I just try and push through it. I feel useless honestly. Like there's no reason for me to be here. I use alcohol to numb myself and keep me from going to that dark place. I don't recommend it though. I often think about talking to someone, maybe seek professional help or something. I just don't know if it would help.

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Same! I'm dealing a lot with anxiety. I have people who love me and care about me, too, but that makes me anxious cause idk why. My biggest enemy is my own mentality. 

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