As many of you already know me and @Hylia have worked things out, not just for the sake of our three beautiful children but also for ourselves. We are so much in love. But there is always that little space, it's very tiny, but it's there. It came to be when I ran into my ex @Jae, he asked me for a drink, no strings attached, I said sure it is New Years Eve what could go wrong? Hylia away to attend Walmart-con in Europe, the kids at @Kali's... what could go wrong?
A few drinks later, we were kissing, but I wasn't drunk, Jae was. I didn't let it go any further than that, I have a family I could not do that to them. I left, but I left my heart in Jaevana.
A little bit of history for you sylkmonsters out there, Jae and I met ages ago, when we first began dating, the passion was raw, hot, he and his.. kept me warm through the winter nights. We moved so fast that I couldn't say no when he first proposed to me. But when i came to my senses, I returned his abuela's ring back. He proposed a second time months later, I said no again. Eventually his infatuation with me shadowed the passion we had nurtured and we broke apart. He kept calling, texting, proposing, I kept ignoring, blocking and rejecting.
"I love you so much baby, I would die for you" He yelled one night from below my window. "Who is that?" @Aidan. had woken up, my then-boyfriend, "No one baby just go back to sleep" I rubbed his shoulder. Another time he crashed me and @ScatsusGifsallah's vacation in Capri, Italy. Stowed away in Winnie's private yacht. It took a while to get him to stop stalking me but he eventually did. When i bumped into him at the NYE party, there he was, wearing his Mariah Carey t-shirt, talking sweet and looking fine, it almost felt like we had never broken up and I could just run up to him, in his arms and press my lips against his and call him mine.. but that was far from the reality, I knew.
I have always been afraid to admit it, I will always be a part of Jae, as he will be mine. But is it wrong to explore that small minuscule space? The flame is there, the passion just needs a blow. My mind is racing with a million questions, but my fingers lingering over the text I have written out to Jae. "Call me" it says. Does he still feel the same way? Is it fair to Hylia? What is the right choice for me?
I sighed, as I pressed send.
Will he text back? If he does, that's bad, if he doesn't.. that's even worse.
To be continued...